Flatline is over. Urges are over. Everything was over and my emotions started become stable until from last twi days.. the urges running through my roof.I literally has to bite my t shirt or break a piece of wood... to stop me from jerking. I feel like I can punch a wall and break it.. I see girls and wonder how intimacy will feel like . i thought my hard days were over.. but it became more now.. I never watched porn in these months..nor had any wet dreams..just once.. on 52nd day now these urges are all over again.. I am very angry and pissed of now on myself..
I cant help you with advice because I'm new to all of this. But I find it funny you say you break pieces of wood. A lot of the times when I relapse, I'm so pissed I smash 32oz glass bottles or dinner plates in my kitchen.
Urges are part of the lifestyle, if you expect no urges at all you’re wrong, the more you don’t want the urge the more it will haunt so just accept how you’re feeling and stop trying yo get rid of it cuz you will only make it worse
lol.. I didnt relapse.. nor I would.. but this is how it feels.. its very difficult actually.. now I realised why most of us fail.. or else everybody had a better life..
i was talking bout porn urges bro, you don’t understand i was having so vivid porn flashbacks and intense urges that i could feel in my stomach, i was literally trembling when women would approach me cuz the intensity of lust
If you are still in the age of buzzing hormones then it's already an answer. I know your feel, I used to punch random things in my home including myself because of anger caused by porn playing in my head, I was angry because I couldn't stop thinking about girls. Be strong dude, try exercising more than usual or sign up to some sport activities