Had to quit job due to PAWS

If you can find time, I'd advice you to pack your backpack and go for for a week or longer hike in nature. I did it last year and intend to repeat it next week. It's hard to describe what happens when you walk alone for 6 or more hours daily. It's like very long meditation. You become peaceful inside and start to see your problems from different perspective. I was a different man when I returned from Camino last year. I swore to myself, I'll go on 9 days hike every 3 months, but I didn't and I'm still sorry about that.

 

Anyone here still suffering from paws?

 

I'm no pmo user, but I have been hospitalized multiple times for metal issues and repeated suicide attempts. I was on so much benzos and high dosages of antidepressants.

I was diagnosed borderline pd and bipolar. In the psyche hospital I saw people pee on themselves, call me the devil, pregnant women screaming at thin air, men throwing chairs.

I stopped working too. If you feel crazy you will act crazy. How we self identify changes a lot.

Eventually I went to church for no clear reason, I just figured it might help me stop wanting to kill myself, or at the least stop taking all my meds and drinking when I felt like playing Russian roulette because I had a bad day.

I finally confessed "God, if you don't save me, I will kill myself. If you're real and are Who you say, save me...because I will die. Save me from me."

He did just that. I stopped my meds, all of them cold turkey. I working in culinary at the time and couldn't think clearly, zoned out a lot, began to dissociate and not recognize my own reflection. That is the scariest thing that's ever happened. To feel like you see a corpse in the mirror. I prayed through it all and get going TO the stress, the conflict, the pain, and that led me to go to Jesus for strength.

I had two kids at the time, and wanted to get my life together for them .

Now that I discovered my husband of three years has had pmo struggles his whole life, I've never wanted to take a precious sparkly blade to my wrist more(the way you all lust after P is how I lusted after self harm. They are noth self harm acts though).

And daily I have new strength in Christ. As much as I want to, I can't hurt myself and the feeling passes. I realize I'm not that person anymore and I just don't do it. It's not an option...that's what Christ promises to believers.

Believe what I say or don't, but just know...running from stress, even brain breaking mental stress is weakening you and your resolve to recover. Go to the stress. Just like a body builder goes to the burden of weight on his back to become stronger.

 

Try to start your own small buisness selling whatever you are passionate about. That will keep you occupied and allow you to work by your own pace. But don't stay idle, man. Any man will loose his mind if he stops earning money. Read this book on how start a buisness under $100:
https://www.amazon.com/100-Startup-Reinvent-Living-Create/dp/0307951529

 

Me.. started August of last year but did relapse a number of times. Still I'm having a lot of PAWS until now.

 

What are your PAWS symptoms?
Were you a long time user?

 

Yeah I've never done drugs but I imagine this is what it feels like. Video games too, for me. Literally never stop thinking about it whenever I'm not doing it.

 

- lightheadedness
- sweating (mostly on chest) even just i'm on standby
- weak/shaky legs (subsiding now)
- on and off insomnia (can sleep but would wake up a lot of times), thankfully, I can go back to sleep though but weird because vivid dreams (been dreaming a lot) are frequent nowadays.
- sometimes I feel itchy randomly
- sometimes gassy / flatulence
- troubled stomach when I drink coffee or tea

Learned M at age 12 but I think I was most hooked with P and M at age 20 when I had my 1st job to afford a computer and internet of my own.. I'm turning 35 this year. what do you think bro?

 

I've experienced these kind of symptoms as well and a lot more hardcore withdrawals. Only solution is stay away from pmo. With time you'll overcome the hardships of the symptoms.

 

How long did they linger on your streak bro @Freeddom_Taker ? Me, I'm having these on and off plus random aches and pains/pins and needles in my body since I started.

 

About 5 years with withdrawals even I was still beating it to p. Worst hit was in mid 2018 till this day. But the symptoms are dying out bit by bit.

 

Oh my! I'm still at 8 mos. and even had a number of relapses ever since.. this is my 4th attempt so far. Good thing I don't binge.. long way to go for me.

 

man, that's why porn is severely bad for us. we need to stop this evil.

 

Damn serious?
I have a question for u, how long have you been doing your last nofap streak?

and also, did you watch the most extreme fetishes 10 times a day, every day? Because I can't imagine having such intense withdrawal from porn, and I'm a pretty heavy porn user