35 and Older Accountability Group

I’m at double digits now! I am just one digit away from what I’m used to. 100 is just around the corner.

 

You just said it all in one sentence , It's all about the desire to escape from reality!

 

Checking in.... into the third week of complete sexual abstinence. Good luck to all of you!

 

Had a good week but today got the best of me. I was tired and worn out. I feel really good sometimes and I certainly do not PMO near as much as I used to but I need to end. I'm not exactly sure how to fight it sometimes when It seems like it just happens without any sort of thought process - usually at vulnerable times (being tired and worn out). It's nice to see some good numbers on the board though. Gotta keep going.

 

That sounds like good progress figuring out warning signals, etc...

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I feel like I’m rolling again. 1 day at a time and being watchful.

 

I now about 4 days away from PM.... under advice from a couple others on here I decided to change my counter to PM only. Does not make much real world difference right now as my wife and I are sleeping separate rooms and not having sex for a while anyway. but if that changes in the future I won't consider it a relapse. feeling more positive about things but i am looking forward to getting out of quarantine and hopefully getting back to somewhat normal life again. anyway, good luck to everyone here.

 

yah man I know what you mean! It’s so easy to slip into it. I’m definitely fighting huge urges to just do a few image searches. I’m very tired and very dissatisfied with my work these days. A little escape would be good right about now... but I have been here before and I know that PMO currency devalues very quickly.

my plan is to spend meaningful time with my wife and kids today. No social media, no distractions. Just wholesome family time!

 

feeling stronger today and keeping busy

 

I had a nice solid run for about 7 days. Then, last Saturday I drank too much and was like "F it, I'm looking at some P". Whatta horse's ass. Drinking too much is a huge contributor to relapse. Even if I don't act out while under the influence, the next day's hangover is usually enough to think "I feel like crap, and I just want to feel good."

That relapse kept me under for all of last week. This morning I have a new fire underneath me. I'm ready to live the life that I always wanted. A life where I feel good about the things that I do, and deserving of the good things in life. When I'm clouded in P, I know that I'm away from God and that I don't deserve good things.

Time to change all of that. I'm committing today in front of, and accountable to, all of you. Let's do this!

 

I had a total crash yesterday. I spent 7 hours total with porn chat rooms. Not at all once but all together. I neglected my wife and kids and any other responsibilities. I reset and hope to get back to 10 days again. Feel like shit today.

 

Get back up on the horse @David2018 and give a little extra attention to the family this week. Don’t let them get use to doing things without you. Here’s to a better day/week ahead!

 

Yeah, was doing so good. Was so ridiculous yesterday. Need to make it to 10pm tonight to hit 1 day. Today will be easy I think but tomorrow will be harder.

 

For me a streak killer in the past has been feeling lots better or feeling like I could give up PM forever.

Kind of weird triggers but it is what it is lol. I think I feel like “no biggie, I’ll take a little break and get back where I was in no time” but that is not what it’s like for me at all.

Aw well, every relapse that leads to greater understanding of triggers or what I need to change is progress.

I’m “stopping the roller coaster” now. I maintaining a belief I will overcome PM when I do relapse. I’m not letting myself get negative. “Aw well I messed up anyway” leads to “who am I kidding. This is how it’s going to be. I can’t quite anyway.” BS. I don’t need that roller coaster ride driven by a monkey who chooses cocain over food and sex lol.

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day 8. It’s one day at a time stuff for me still but I’m committed. Feeling better and looking forward to getting a few more days of healing in.

 

still looking good - plenty of PM opportunities today but walked away from them....

 

Nice job. Me too. Had a good day. Avoided all issues.

 

Hi everyone just checking in. I've been around like for a year and a couple of months, I am on 2 groups from day one on nofap and the help of everybody here made get to the top 5 ! I still can't believe it, i think this is the second time here, or close maybe. I had a long streak before and fell from the top. When I started here, I remember keep failing and never getting to the top 10. Thanks to God, and that He put all of you around me to take care and help me. I've made it here and like they say at boxing I'll defend the title by not falling from that top

Don't let this lockdown get on your nerves #stayathome but most of all #stayAccountable!

 

funny morning right now - feel like following some urges, but gotta get some work done....