Day 4 Yesterday I had a great day. I was with my friends, and thank God I actually felt that pure joy
Day 0 Fast relapse. When I'm getting up in the middle of the night, I have much less controll over myself. Like I'm not the same person. I dont have the rational part of myself, that says "hey it will be bad for you in the long run". I'm not sure about it what to do.
Day 1 Yesterday kicked back that bad feeling of shame, but God carried out to be an awesome day, had some great conversations with my friends, and I felt amazingly after it
169=13*13 days completed. This is 1 day better than my PMO record and I consider it a mile stone on my current streak. However, I am on a PM streak (married by now), and my PM record is actually 237 days. Still, I am glad about the progress I made, and I hope that I keep progressing. This journey feels like it's never ending for me.