Rank 18 (Day 19) - Padawan It's unbelivable. 19 days without any second edging or anything pornlike. It's a very good feeling. Thank you to all of you for beeing here with me!
I fell to the dark side tonight. Just like with Anakin it happened gradually, this past few days iv been taking liberties. It was inevitable
My mistakes? I let my healthy routine slip. I was watching triggering YouTube videos. I let sexual frustration overwhelm me, I was weak.
Gave in to the dark side, I was looking at triggering videos on Instagram. I've had so many broken streak since being on nofap how do I maintain a solid streak?
I've come to realize the importance of nipping things in the bud. Innocent little slip-ups aren't so innocent after all. They are the first step down the dark path. Listing your mistakes and learning from them next time around is definitely the right way to handle a relapse though.
I try to do it likewise. Recognizing weakness in it's first small characteristic, far before it can overwhelme me, ist important.
In order to stay true to God, myself and this amazing community I am setting myself boundaries, if I cross the boundaries it will be a relapse and I will reset my counter to day 0. My boundaries Touching my penis for anymore than 3 seconds = relapse (except for peeing and washing) Going into chatrooms = relapse Sexual YouTube videos = relapse Pornographic pictures = relapse
I have a similar threshold for my recovery and I have made it 19 days without a problem. For some of these, I count them as resets versus relapses, and while it has not been a problem, if I start an action, realize within a few moments of my error, and I stop (for instance I start to look for porn-sub or I even look at porn-sub, but I stop within moments of starting, I consider myself to still be safe. Because we will have slip ups, but as long as we recognize what we are doing moments before we start to engage, I don’t count that a reset. With that said, I think that viewing a pornographic video, or touching myself for an extended period of time is at the very least a reset, and if I do not stop in a minute (or I ejaculate), then it is a full relapse. Granted, you do you, those are just my two cents, but it has done wonders for my recovery. I have made it 19 days without PMO, and other than a quick moment of fishing last weekend Saturday, in which I realized my error and came on here, I have not even come close to resetting or relapsing. Being stricter with yourself may help you too, but by calling some of these actions a relapse versus a reset could cause you to binge because you feel like you failed completely. It is semantics, but it is your choice. Best, Mathman1994