Day 10. Sorry for being offline for several days. I've had a lot of work irl. Uruk-hai again. @Gandalf the White I'm on the road again) How are you?
Day 1 I was super tired this morning, and I had my lecture playing in the background as I closed my eyes. My mom thinks I am still beating myself up for my relapse two nights ago, but I still woke up in better spirits this morning than I did yesterday. I am into school again and I start work next week, so we will see how that goes. I think that my relapse two nights ago involved me falling off my horse, but not into the abyss because I did not binge. I am back on the horse again, and since I did not binge, the progress I made in the last month is not completely undone, so my brain is still healing and not completely rebroken again. I have made it to Elf finally, and I cannot wait to get back there, the to Dwarf, then to Warrior, etc, etc. This challenge is one of my motivational factors to keep clean, so I am thankful for that. Best, Mathman1994
@marxlaw @Rubzi @Gef 71 @Luks2020 @MattDog @AbrahamLincoln @Kentaro @Kaveira1418 @Onan the Barbarian @Joe Smith04 @DudeAlex @1punchman @Gandalf the White @{ Ben } @GeertinX @Breakthrough! Hi guys, we're at the same level (Uruk-Hai). Let's make it together to the realm of the Hobbits. The Shire is waiting for us! we can do this! But only together.
I am back and I am one day clean again. I know the cost of relapse and I don't want to have another one happen.
Just added blocksite to my browser to block all my usual sites. One added layer to prevent relapse. Good luck, fellowship!
Oh yeah, and it is password based, so I googled strong password generator and got a really strong random password that I won't remember. It will be too inconvenient to relapse!
One day clean... Today was tougher than usual, usually the first few days pass relatively free of challenge but I suppose not this time. I realised it's been a long while since I consolidated my reasons for quitting and reminded myself of the damage P has rendered unto me, so I'm going to refresh myself now.