I don't think I'll go that far, haha. I really just need to stay disciplined and enforce the rules I've already set for myself. Being able to voice my frustrations on this forum and through other outlets is a big help. Thanks for holding me accountable.
Day 87! I'm starting to enjoy doing daily check-ins, though I'm kinda disappointed that I don't have revelations to provide you yet as I'm usually doing this late at night and all my creativity/productivity is already used on other channels. The confidence is boosting up and I'm feeling more willing to challenge myself more and more. Now if that's not something to strive for... I don't know what is!
Day 10. Today I fished and I felt awkward. My defenses must be reinforced, so the next days I don´t fall in worse content. St. Maravillas of Jesus, intercede for us.
Super video clip @RiseToGreatness - many thanks again brother! J.K. Emezi references another clip which he says addresses replacing addiction with positive addictions, but I can' find that clip - would you know where I can find that? Addendum - actually I think this might be it https://ro-ro.facebook.com/jkemezi1/videos/day-38/230553661537859/
Hi @CrimsnBlade, would you be able to share some of the stress coping techniques you've learned? I just realised I have been blaming stress and irritability on the reboot process lately, which of course it isn't.
Day 35 I’m ashamed to say I spent 10 mins fishing after a stressful day at work; it’s no excuse, and I’m incredibly annoyed at myself after so many days free from urges. I even had the opportunity to distract myself but neglected to do so! If and when this happens again I might fight it with all my strength, but at the very least I am pleased today’s episode did not cause me to relapse. For now, I must celebrate entering the Misty Mountains cold!
Day 2. Had 1 more relapse 2 days ago. Still working to make my next streak my last one. Feeling good and positive overall. Trying to keep the good vibes going.
Day 161. At every stimulus, just turn away. I know it is hard, but it is not impossible. You are controlling the you that you think is not you but it really is you.
Checking in 12 days. Another 3 days till I'm back on the journey as a Hobbit. Yesterday I finished reading The Easy_Peasy method. Absolutely worth reading. I've seen negative comments about this book because it says to continue to PMO until you finish reading the book but honestly you can stop at anytime you want you don't need to keep doing it. Just read the book if you're ready to quit porn forever.
@RiseToGreatness , thanks for your reply and for that awesome video. You're right, he spoke directly to my concern. I know I'm not formally keeping up right now, but happy to report that I have been a non-user of PMO since my last post! I'll come back soon, don't worry! Wishing everyone Godspeed!
Checking in for day 02. I know I have been relapsing a lot lately and I have been away from noFap for sometime. Coming back here and reading the comments, and reading successful stories always gave me a boost. Life always has ups and downs. I have been a porn addict for 15 years now. I can always take this an excuse of why I relapse every time. I can blame the whole universe for helping me reaching that far. And I can also blame myself for letting myself reach that time. Its easy to open a chocolate bar and eat it, instead of making a healthy food meal. When we all know that the bar won’t satisfy me, and will always drive me to eat more and more. Making the healthy meal will be tough and will take longer and more effort to cook, but in the end I will feel satisfied and won’t need to eat junk food. That is the process of no pmo. It’s easier to watch porn and masturbate all day. And its harder to get up, and work on my life. I know that my willpower to drive me to quit pmo, but will it help me stop for life? To quit something I know I must help myself to hate this thing. Please forgive me for quitting a lot, and disappearing a lot on this forum.
Day 9 complete! @Prophet Moonstruck said it all--it's late, I'm tired, and I don't have much to add. There's a little stress in the mix, so I'm definitely feeling the HALTS triggers, and a slight urge is arising to "comfort" myself with MO. The thing is, that's no comfort at all. From the ashes, a fire shall be woken. A light from the shadows shall spring. Renewed shall be blade that was broken. The crownless again shall be king.