Around a month i was failing , and today i failed again .Even through my semen didnt came out , i wached porn for 3 hours , and i see that as huge fail. I had today to do important project , but i instead watched as some drug addicted porn and i edged. But today i want to be the last day i failed, even through it will be hard road i promise to my self and to you i will do Nofap to the end of 2021 (at least). You guys are my witness of my words.
Day 95. The weather is finally warming up. The anxiety I was experiencing from online dating has subsided substantially. I am content with continuing down the path that I am on until I find someone I would like to get to know. Most importantly, I need to stay focused on my goals and diligent in my day-to-day life.
Day 1, Ran this morning and starting spring break. It will be nice to walk away from the computer when I have an urge. Here is to a PMO free weekend!
Checking in Fellowship!! Crossing the Ford of Bruinen with my buddy @Onan the Barbarian . Are you still on the horse bro? Let´s welcome back our brother @DudeAlex . Let´s do this bro!! The following brothers have upgraded and reach places in Middle Earth. Congratulations!!! @Gallade_Templar - Hobbit / Hobbiton (you´re now on the hall of fame bro . Let´s go destroy that thing!!) @MyGodandMyAll27 - Dwarf / Moria A wave of support to our fellows in need @KingWhalers and @Themomentum . Rise my brothers, you can do it!!! Nothing more to add group. Have a great day and rest of the weekend!!
Yes sir, still a ride or die Hobbit today! On my way to the gym after doing at least a little graduate work this morning. I'm lifting pretty heavy for a hobbit, now that I think about it.
Checking in Day 115 Right now I am closer to relapsing than I ever have been since this stretch began. Reason is that I am sitting alone here, after having taken some days off work, and feeling very isolated and I suppose lonely. Also after stopping work I feel wrecked, deflated. So here I am doing some online shopping for some key things tonight, and I get a message out of the blue from some random anonymous woman asking if I want to see some videos. I stupidly typed a response before giving it any thought, asking her what type of videos, but no response, radio silence thankfully. This must be some sort of scam, so I have deleted the message now. Staying strong and humbly asking for your prayers friends....
Hey brother don't be worried or upset whatever happens in your life see it as the will of the God. You surely got some talents you can use for the benefits of people and nature in your place and maybe go and get some lembas tomorrow. What name should we use in prayer? crazyhorse11?
Day 5 Something weird has happened to me, and I’m not sure if I should be about happy it. I’m 29 years old, and this morning I’ve woken up covered in cum. That’s like the third time in my life that it happened to me, and the first two where when I was like 15. Is it a good sign? Seriously I have no idea what to make of it. I remember the sex I’ve had in the dream which also almost never happen to me. In all other aspect of my life I am happier now then I’ve been in something like three years of severe depression. This challenge really changed my life. I still haven’t been able to make it pass 14 days, but still I feel so much batter just going from 5 times a day to once every 5 days of so… I just have so much more free time. Thank you all.
Day 16 complete! I had the opportunity to hang out with some of the bros over wings and a hockey game. It was a long time since I've seen some of them. Not much real work was accomplished today but it was a day well spent, and nearly urge-free. @bob200 You mean a wet dream? Usually for guys who are recovering that's a good sign, as it means the body is getting used to the idea of not having a manual release at such frequent intervals.
yes, you´re now officialy fishing bro. a relapse process has started. i think the main problem was: "after having taken some days off work, and feeling very isolated and I suppose lonely. Also after stopping work I feel wrecked, deflated." I think you didn´t plan your free time and that is a major problem in recovery. Free time and no planning = boredom = risk of fishing. But you have not relapsed, there´s still time to correct things and you must change them, ASAP. first - stop fishing, stop engaging in any kind of sexual stimulation. second, plan your day and the next days = what will you do in the free time. third - keep your triggers prevention system high and running, because now you´re not so solid as before, so block yourself from any kind of sensitive situation. do this in the next days, and you´ll be allright . And next time, don´t forget to plan!