Thank you !! It has been a challenge to get here and to stay firm but is worth it! I couldn't have made it without the support of this group and nofap. I've change my work shifts to nights so I'm trying to spend more family time and less computer time. I'm sorry i'm not as online as I was used to. But I am here enjoy the fresh air of freedom. My pray is for all of you to stay firm, stay strong and stay free!!
@Lovelife247 - You have been added to the member ranking. Welcome back and good luck in your recovery efforts.
Three failed weekends in a row, I guess due more to stress than any kind of urges. I know I'm not trying hard enough. But It's inspiring to see some of you older group members getting some impressive numbers these days, I plan to join you soon.
Checking in. I've started doing a very intense yoga routine, and it's been really great for centering myself and channeling that extra energy in a positive way.
Monday - got through the weekend which is always tough. Had sex last night as well. which hasnt happened for a very long time - so thats +ve!
Checking in at the 4 weeks mark, pretty content with that. After last week's single psub exposure, it took me 2-3 days before the urge to go looking for stimulation when in front of my computer subsided, but it's all calm once again now.
So, I think I spent too much of days 14-21 battling off psub/middle-circle and other physiological urges, but now I'm feeling like maybe that's passed. Maybe it's some to do with weather/environment and change. Maybe it's some to do with change in mood as I felt like I was in a bit of an emotional vacuum, but now I'm feeling some emotions returning. Be diligent about a routine. Be mindful in the moment... enough to practice coping habits. And, don't slack in the areas I know are good for recovery. It may not sound like much, but from moment to moment it can be a tall order.
Checking in. Stayed away from the forums and internet in general after the last relapse. I knew I would be tempted to do a couple of follow-on relapses, so I created a short term goal of just 3 days of intense focus and productivity while limiting mindless activities to a bare minimum. Urges kept popping up, multiple times over the course of an hour even, but all I wanted was to reach this small short term goal and feel pleased with my accomplishments during those 3 days. It was motivating and I'm happy to report meaningful progress in both work & home life. Now I need to figure out where to go from here so that I am not writing this same message sometime during the next two weeks as usual!
Checking in! Up early this morning, studied Chinese and did a hard yoga routine. Ready to face the day!
Sorry to hear it, @Juxtaposition. It sounds like one of the things to update in your plan is how to handle days off. Before the next day off comes, make a morning plan with a buddy to go do something, or create a workout plan and commit to it. Something to get you out of bed right away and moving!