Day 7, Super active week and quite tired. Intending to have a PMO free weekend. 1st dose of COVID vaccine tomorrow! Keep healthy and strong Fellowship!
Day 101. Feeling good today. The chaser effect has subsided substantially and I finally got a good night's rest last night. Hopefully, there is more of this to come.
Breathe in...breathe out. I'm back to Day 0 again. A streak that lasted only three days is not what I wanted to see. This one was weird because it's not as though I was fighting some huge, drawn-out battle and collapsed at the end. I didn't use any P, didn't have much in the way of urges at all, I just...I don't know. I was taking a quick study break and ended up cranking one out for no particular reason.
Alright! Day 2! check in! Even tough I said I would start on the 16, I've fallen to the old trap of... "you know what? I'll just start tomorrow again, as there is one more fantasy that I need to explore". So I took some time before to really be sure of everything I want to explore, to put some "effort" into this last thing and not let it be just a mindless instant gratification that would make me want again next time and just listen to the urge. Had to get back into the mindset of doing things with certainty, and this was the last time that I got the chance to consider Fapping a thing I'm sure that I want to do. And with day 2 here, and the week-end it's time to continue doing things I'm sure about doing!
brave Fellowship, i have slipped last night i think i indulge a little bit in pizza and became very sluggish. i started fishing in my mobile. then stop, then gone to sleep, but i couldn´t because i was in a boiling point. so i leave the bed again, grab the mobile and the rest is history. it was just one time and today i don´t feel many side effects, just the natural fatigue and demotivation. but i will get over fast, i´m sure. i updated my triggers prevention plan to avoid similar scenarios. also, yesterday i didn´t plan my day, just basically drag myself and it was tangible that the urges were getting stronger as i became more bored. a warning sign that i neglected and payed the price. but lesson (re)learned. i was coming here today to say goodbye to you all because this challenge was no longer motivating to me. i repeated it so many times, that is painful to do it all over again. and the counter, man, i just can´t look at it anymore. but, i receive a private message from a fellow member who touched my heart deeply and made me cry like a baby. it made me change my mind. so i will stay with you Fellowship , keeping our spirits together until the end of the PMO ring. I will just erase the counter since is detrimental to me, and make a note on my agenda when a upgrade is done. Thank you all for your support Fellowship. Words are not enough
I have four days. Since turning 51, I have not lapsed; I intend to keep it that way for the rest of my life. One day at a time, as they say in A.A. All the best!
Somebody has the 10% Challenge in their signature, so I joined that today. I need 475 days. Ugh, I watched a lot of pornography!
Brother, don't feel painful, because you fell by the will of Eru Iluvatar who knows the end from the beginning. Treat your fall as a test and a lesson to advance and don't live in shame by any means and don'd be afraid of relapse just do what you can to prevent it from happening in the future by incorporating the insights from you last lesson into your fight plan all the way until you become invincible to this evil. Treat it as studying for higher education diploma(500). There gonna be many tests and exams (which we all have to pass in order to advance)on the way. Be happy to learn every detail and one day we all be there-graduate. Maybe even going to take on Masters degrees and beyond! Love you brother !
Sooo after 18 day streak, I fell. Today is 0day. I guess it was Saturday laziness and overthinking. I hate it that when I am not busy, masturbate needs overwhelmed me. I just wanted to chill in peace, not fight with this shit. But all in all, I think it was a quite good streak and I should be proud of myself for achieving it! Also today I've seen the quote on Instagram saying: "You show your greatness in that how you get up after your falls." I will take that! I won't give up!