Checking in Fellowship I slipped last night. a night of insomnia and the urges caught the best of me. once again, i fell to soon and too quickly for my normal standard. i almost didn´t put up a fight, and it was not even autopilot, it was more like a feeling of being overwhelmed and in need to escape. this shows that for me semen retention is definitely too much, you were right @crazyhorse11 . it creates a latent pressure on me, and when another extra pressure appears, it becomes to much and i collapse. so i will resume my normal pattern of no porn / no masturbation, which lead me to good results in the past. as for semen retention, i leave it with a 35 days streak, a 50 days streak, and some smaller streaks in between. not bad for a married guy i did my best Fellowship, but monk mode is definitely not for me, at least in this point in my life. I still encourage it for everyone, especially single fapstronauts, because the benefits and the rewiring of the brain will be much faster. but everyone has is own path, so follow the one you feel is the best for you As for me, back to no pm Let´s carry on . Have a great day my brothers and sisters!!!
Some thoughts I had on urges and how to never have them What is an urge and what causes it? The urge is a mental and physical tension build up in a streak caused by an excess of sexual energy that is not balanced meaning in men an excess of male energy with a lack of female energy to balance it up so this creates a physical need to get rid of the excessive energy meaning excess semen, even too much of a good thing if it is not balanced can be troublesome. Women usually don’t have many urges because feminine energy is calmer and passive it’s not as violent as the male energy. Also male energy semen has a tendency to go out trough ejaculation for procreation and female energy has the tendency to remain in women’s body so they create children. The urge can be called in western terms Prostate congestion too much buildup semen in the prostate so the body feels a need to ejaculate to release tension this will create different symptoms like body tension, nervousness, anxiety, fatigue, mental fog, lack of focus, constant thoughts about sex, being easily triggered and other autonomic symptoms like vomiting and even feeling like you want to fade. This is your body and mind telling you they need this sexual energy to be balanced or simply lose it through ejaculation. You are being attacked by your own body and mind. The cure : As you can see urges are not an immediate and imminent symptom that comes from nowhere it’s the result of accumulated sexual tension is a chronic problem. So you can see the cure is not an immediate treatment you need to treat the main cause, you need to avoid coming to the point of being in such a sexual imbalance so the urge does not come out. PERMANENT WAYS TO HAVE NO URGES Awareness: Recognize the urge is starting to build up, you have to be aware of yourself everyday if you are starting to feel tense like little tiny urges then you know you are creating sexual tension. Relax: Once you realized urges are starting to build up you need to be relaxed. Ejaculation comes with tension, a relaxed man both in body and mind doesn’t ejaculate so this translates in no urges. Urges are build up tension, so start by building up relaxation. Simply focus on your breath, relax your face and have good posture, let your thoughts come and go. Be relaxed all the time it doesn't matter how hard life gets. How to be relaxed:The point is to be relaxed in anything you do simply focusing on your breath and relaxing your face is enough. You can try meditation focusing on your breath, yoga, exercise. But the point is to simply be relaxed without doing anything special, it becomes part of who you are. CONCLUSION -Understand what causes urges and what they are: build up sexual tension that the body and mind is trying to get rid of by making you feel sick so you ejaculate. -Awareness: realize sexual tension is starting to appear don’t wait until the urge is too strong to recognize it. -Relax: the cause is sexual tension you fight with relaxation be a relaxed person and you’ll never have urges no more.
I’m on a current streak that has taken me currently up to my 9th day, I’d like to join this awesome challenge if possible!
Had a lot of urges yesterday and had done a lot of dumbells squats so now I can barely walk without pain in the legs ,but I don't mind the pain to pay for beating up lust and ...meditated, taken cold shower, 45 minutes of calisthenics( managed to pull something when showing off with 2 finger pocket pull ups without any warm up) and well had another productive day with good progress . Lookes like I had repeated symptoms yesterday- overall weakness, light headache and quite a butter-head procrastinating brain not responsible to any coffee or tea. Now it's gone and I feel good again !!!
Day 5 I am experiencing struggles and urges here and there but my resolve is growing as I continue on my journey. I've been pretty busy lately so that has been stressful. I keep too many things in my head so I need to do a better job at writing down my schedule or my day for whats ahead for me.
Day 0 I fell to porn again yesterday afternoon and last night. Some things have really been weighing on my heart and mind and I gave into anxiety instead of finding productive ways to confront these issues. Today I went to confession and received absolution. I have prayed and will do some meditation. I will take a walk today yet. I know I wasn't born to be a porn addict. I want to change. Today is a new day. I'm going to keep working on how I deal with anxiety. One thing is I'm going to try to confront difficult tasks ASAP instead of running to hide amongst pixels on the internet.
Thank you. I was troubled all Thursday with thoughts. Kept having urges. Urges to PMO. Urges to fish and urges to search for this instagram model I find attractive. I typed in her name into google, but stopped short of oogling her photos. Just put my laptop away and went and sat with my parents in the living room and watched TV. Yesterday was much better, though that had to do with the fact that I had to help my sisters move so I was walking up and down stairs carrying heavy boxes in oppressive heat (at least for a Wisconsinite). It was high 80s low 90s Fahrenheit and humid, which while no where close to southern USA or other countries, is still quite hot for someone acclimated to harsh winters and cool air. For instance, I wear short sleeves in 50-60 degree weather. Anyway, I made it through yesterday and now I am on day 20 no P and day 15 no MO, so I have made it over my slump which feels great. Best, Mathman1994
Day 15 @RiseToGreatness I am finally ready to start my journey as a Hobbit. Day 12 and 13 were a bit rough, but I did not MO or PMO and other than some short fishing on those days, I have not fished since or peeked, or edged or anything. It feels wonderful to be a Hobbit again. It has been months since I have been to this stage, so this feels great! Best, Mathman1994
Day 24, Despite all of the healthy habits my streak was strained by a cast of the rod if you will. Began to fish for a minute or 2 before turning away. Hiked, gardened, had sex, all of the things and still was brought to want to view P. All is well and thank you for the support Fellowship!