Day 3 of being on Day 0 - I went on a PMO binge yesterday after doing a stream of consciousness journaling session on my fantasies, childhood, and traumas. It was very eye opening, and now I feel like I have hit rock bottom. At least I hope I have, because otherwise, I have no idea how much further I can fall, if I am not on rock bottom. I will be taking a few days break from the forums to get my life in order and then when I have finally put together a 4-7 day streak, I will be back. Best, Mathman1994
Fellas! Felling pretty guilty tonight. I didn't relapse this time, but the memories of the things that I did are haunting my mind and I feel like crap. Don't know if it's a pyschological mecanism to make me relapse, as it popped out of my mind as this "ultra-miraculous-solution-to-any-suffering", which was easy to spot as a lie, but still I didn't have any urge per se, just the thought of relapsing as a way out of this feeling. Gonna medidate a little bit before going to sleep. Maybe this guilt binge comes from that sudden slowdown of studying routine. Anyway, good luck yall!
Day 1 complete! The last few hours I've had a really annoying headache which I suspect is a combination of poor sleep lately, and perhaps a touch of heat exhaustion from my lifeguarding job. Regardless, PMO is the last thing on my mind right now, so I'm grateful for this minor suffering in that sense.
Day 3 I’m saying this with a lot of caution, but I feel like I’m on the start of a new streak. I hate so much the first 72 hours, they are the worst. I’m just happy that I’ve never took hard drugs and had to go through “real” withdrawal symptoms. I’ve woken up today, and the first thing I did was to fish. Got on YouTube and after a few minutes I found myself looking at booty shaking videos of bad singers. I know that fishing is bad, but the fact that I realize what I was doing and simply stopped and moved on with my life is such a fun realization. I still need to meditate today, but I’ve already washed my face and cleaned myself up and I’m on a public workspace and I feel safe for today. the quest begins again!
50 days. Made it into Moria and became a dwarf. Time to get more stubborn I guess Slightly undisciplined and unfocused yesterday when it came to my thoughts. Allowed myself to indulge in some fantasies, which I've told myself since the beginning of the streak not to do. Otherwise, a good day.
Day 20 Feeling well. Seems like i am returning in my previous life before PMO. That was happy life. BTW now I have reached in old village of Bree.
Day 15, A Hobbit today! Been having some urges over the past few days but keeping active and away from P and P subs. Getting back into running but not burning myself out. Best to you all Fellowship!
day 70 - Warrior of Gondor I will recover the Osgiliath i lost and bring my honor back to the Fellowship.
Checking in fellowship friends! 253 days free of porn and 181 days free of MO. I've had quite a productive morning so far, meditation, worked out and wrote a post that has been on my mind for quite some time. I've shared the link below for anyone who is interested! https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...ant-steps-in-overcoming-pmo-addiction.313854/ Stay strong!
