Haven't been active for a while. Stayed clean for close to 90 days. Gave in to edging twice in 2 days. I ended it there. I'm glad it's over. I will reset my counter.
Sorry to hear that. If weight is a particular problem I recommend having a look at David Goggins’s videos on YouTube. He struggled with his weight but went on to become an ultramarathon runner. I think his attitude and approach to life’s problems is the best way to beat addiction I know of. Wishing you all the best!
Thanks lads. Just gonna try and eat healthy again, get some exercise. I remember earlier in the year, I did quite well refraining from fapping/porn and was eating very healthy at that time. I need to make a journal because I forget a lot of the stuff I was doing during the time when things were going well for me. Food for thought, cheers.
The more i relapse ,the more it become hard . Why my will power is not enough to go clean for even one week. Someone said very perfectly "it is simple but not easy". Those who chase perfectness , please keep chasing.Those who fight ,keep fighting .
I'm back to zero. I moved house recently with my wife and our 3 kids, it was an all consuming bundle of stress. That's not an excuse but those were the circumstances. I didn't realise I had actually gone past 90 days. That is one consolation alright as I start over.
@Low Tide High Tide I feel your disappointment, but don’t diminish your achievement- 90 days is an amazing milestone and you should be very proud. It’s quite understandable to have a slip under that kind of stress, so don’t beat yourself up at all.
That is still an incredible amount of time being a better version of yourself away from porn. It can be so difficult dealing with the various stressors life throws at us. Kids on top of that will deplete your energy even on a good day! These types of high stress circumstances worry me. I have been good recently about identifying and reducing the 'out of the blue' slip ups, where I got overconfident and just sort of relapsed on autopilot. I'm not entirely sure yet how my technique will work when I'm dealing with stress and fatigue for days on end.
Friday eve log in. passed a week now, strong urges today but just watched a lot of telly and feel much calmer.
Sat night check in. Last night I began to entertain the idea of PM, knowing that my SO was going away for the night, but had a chat with her and feel corrected. Definitely on a more of an even keel right now. I'm trying to stay as much as possible away from my office.
Reset at 8 days. Proud I made it this far. I'm beginning to understand that hunting/seeking behavior seems to be a large part of my addiction. I'm going to work on understanding that during August. And, @SeekingEnergy, nobody's ever told me I look pale after a reset, but I looked in the mirror a few minutes ago and thought that I looked sallow and exhausted, like I'd been up all night on a drinking binge, when really I'm sober (chemically, at least) and well-rested.