Back on my descktop and saw that today is actually day 5. Day 5 is a good day, though It could've been better, I am feeling like I'm getting close to a question, though I feel like I'm not completely back in the game. I do however feel like I'm doing some stretches and having fun with the ball before actually playing, so that's pretty good from where I'm standing. See you, tomorrow brothers!
140kg I just lifted my first 3 plates of 20kg on each side on the bench press. I'd say this is the greatest feat I have ever done , even more than graduated from med school, 3 years semen retention, dating beautiful and high quality girls. At least I consider this one more impressive. I have achieved any materialistic goal I had in my life, in a way this is a symbolic retirement from the world. I'll keep pushing, in all aspects of my life but in terms of worldly goals I'm pretty much set from an emotional point of view, I'll probably lift more, study more, win more money. But it has lost an emotional value to me.
Day 18. I'm working out and this week I found myself learning to play the guitar. I'm not having triggers and I'm getting through each day. I feel more mental clarity and willingness. I also notice that my sleep is 8-12 hours a night. I feel like a teenager again
Checking in day 3. Been tough. Great to read all the posts again today after a day in which i wanted to release. Thanks for the support.
Day 7 Very nice day today. I woke up at 9am, watched some Japanese videos for listening practice and watched some more of Dr. K's guide. I went out on the same walk as I did yesterday at 11am which was absolutely blissful. I also did my flashcards whilst I was out. I came back home, meditated, played some games with my friends, played a bit of FF14 since there's a limited time event going on right now and then finished the work that I missed from yesterday. I'm not sure if I'm just over analysing but I think I've started to become a more irritable as a withdrawal symptom, I was getting super frustrated whilst I was playing FF14 because I couldn't figure out where I was meant to go for a quest. It was super out of the blue and in sort of a self aware manner I was kind of confused at myself as to why I was getting so upset over such a tiny thing. I didn't have any notable urges today which I think proves my assumption from yesterday about how I had so many urges because I was having a lot of idle time and wasn't sticking to my routine.
Checking in Fellowship friends! Free of porn 308 days, free of MO 236 days. I'm taking things slowly, putting an emphasis on rest. It's too soon to go into too much detail, so I will leave you on a brief note from the book Meditations by Marcus Aurelius. "Observe then as thou hast begun, and whatever thou doest, do it in conjunction with this, the being good, and in the sense in which a man is properly understood to be good. Keep to this in every action. " Stay strong my friends.
Day 15. I'm a Hobbit¡¡ Yeahh hehe I'm so happy about it becauses it was a long time that I didnt pass to this streak on my journey , it's just one more step in my journey to mordor but every victory counts and every step to make it true
53 days – A death silence swept the halls. You try to pass unnoticed under the mountain but the PMO forces are cunning and have arisen. So exhausted from work Glad to be with you all now though.
11 days. I aim to slowly ease into the habit of exercising again after my cold and an overall lack of discipline on that front lately. Started with a 30 min walk yesterday.