I don't have the crazy urges anymore, but even thought I have reached 120 days my brain still trying to play tricks on me. For example, yesterday I had a major family drama. You know, the typical complaining, arguing about some bullshit and eventually both side are upset and super mad etc.. Later when I was by my self, right away my brain was like: You see.. they don't care for you so you deserve to relax, PMO. Fuck it all and everyone. Back in the days I used to bend down to this type of mentality so easy. Not anymore, because I know my life is much better now. Other example: Can't sleep for whatever reason. My brain: Just PMO this time and you will be able to sleep and I promise I wont bother you next time. Today, for whatever I can't sleep, I just pick a book and read. Guaranteed I will fall sleep in 15 mins. Getting to 90+ days, it does not means that you will be 100% free from your old-self, but your new-self is more fun, interesting, smarter and happier. Who are you going to listen to when you are feeling the urges? Be the new you! Good luck everyone!
Day 0: The Act of Punishment. It will be tough not engaging in dopamine-inducing activities but that is the price I have to pay.
Relapsed on Saturday so I have 14 days of The Act of Punishment. Good thing I will be going on a week-long vacation at a location with very poor internet connectivity. So this should be easy!
Act of Punishment Day 13 of 21- I had gone on a small vacation for 7 days. However, I did relapse by fapping out of boredom so that added additional 7 days.
It is tiring for sure maybe even counterproductive. I believe willpower is like a muscle that requires training every day to get stronger. For me, it is about reducing activities that cause me to lose focus and indulge in distraction. It is a reset of some sort for my dopamine. That is how I view it.