Unfortunately i relapsed I failed to stay clean till my birthday My thoughts aren't clear enough, i need to seek help, i need to talk to someone about my addiction. I can't see and end to this. The same pattern again: i peek, i relapse. The moment i feel hopeless and sad, i start Searching sexual stimulation...sigh. Day 0
Day 15/90 Yeah!!! Half a month gone, and I haven't watched porn or masturbated yet. It is good. Feels powerful. I'm gonna celebrate this, and go on a short trip. And I encourage my fellow fapstronauts to celebrate their victories as well, it will definetly fuel your drive. Let's do this guys. All the best and thankyou!
Day 65 I almost slipped yesterday due to very bad sleep, but I slept much better today. I think I overtrained + went on climbing practice late in the evening - my cortisol was probably very high which resulted in waking up multiple times. Bad sleep = bad decisions next day if you let your emotions do the talking! This is why good nights sleep is the priority always!
Interesting Video. I thought about the Redpill DAY 1!. Finaly I overcome the first 24 hours, the hardest part most of the time.
Thank you friend, I'm trying. The good thing is that i kept the damage to minimum. The urges are hitting stronger...., I'm learning to say no.
Sounds almost exactly like me! Except I don't drink at all. You are not alone! My advice is for you to keep koming back here and read the forum posts. Together we can find ways to cope with the impulses and the OCD-like behaviour. Writing things down can be very effective. Also talk out loud to yourself when you're alone so that you can verbalize you thoughts so that you can hear them really helps. It's like talking sense to yourself. When you become aware of your subconscious behaviours and the reasons to why you react or think in a certain ways, the subconscious lose it's power because you pull it up to the surface so that you can understand what the underlying problem is and where it comes from. There is a solution to everything. I recognize that feeling of having to do things in different orders as you described. Talking for myself. It's interesting how at one point I can be extremely interested in one thing, like an OCD-like obsession. But when I've entered a whole different level of consciousness by doing something that is much better for me, then over time I don't care about that OCD obsession anymore. It's strange how the brain works but obsessions are just illusions. By widening our perspective we can see, feel and understand things we couldn't before.
Day 3/90. Had a interesting week thus far. Everything personal outside of work hit me hard. Made some mistakes. Live and learn is how I see it. Let's keep moving forward people.
