Back to day 0. I'm convinced that to masturbate once a fortnight is very healthy and convinced myself that when indulged in the early hours. Thought it won't be a problem since I could hold out for another 2 weeks. Only problem is people like me don't do moderation and I ended up fapping 3 more times in last 12 hours. Every time I think I have it under control I go and do something stupid like this.
Thank you, though I failed late at night. I peeked, then I couldn't stop myself from watching some P scenes after 3min, I stopped myself, and controlled my brain. But at night, I couldn't sleep, my brain refused to shut down, Around 4:54 I went to the bathroom when the urges hit again, the wifi was on, alone, horny,... I did PMO for 30min. Another fall, another loss. But I don't feel too bad, maybe this is temporary. Now I have to prevent further slips because I feel the need to do it again. Day 0
Day 8/90. Made it to week one. I once made it towards two weeks before my urges got out of control. In speaking of urges it got to me very bad. At the gym saw some beautiful ladies and it got my mind imagining of X rated scenes but thank God I had my face looking the other way to curve my urges. You know what they say the struggle is real. I want to change my habits and become who I was destined to be. Be safe out there guys. Here's to day 8/90
I was with my daughter yesterday and didnt check in but im still pmo free. Ive been doing cals and stretching, meditation, breathwork and trying to use the time i would waste on lust in more positive pursuits. Trying to be a little better every day regardless of how im feeling. I cant stop porn or any addiction for that matter without putting something in its place. Just stopping doesnt work. Now i need to get regular again with 12 step mtgs and get myself fit to be of service to others. When my time comes i want to die in peace knowing i fought the good fight and finished the race. One day at a time.