Day 5 New Year wishes to everyone! If I don't stay humble, I'm out of this game- one more time. Day 5 reporting, I can feel Testosterone surging. I'm starting to feel cocky once more, it isn't good. I know I'll be beset with un-defeatable urges and I need to find a way to ground myself.
@Slider8 So true, Master Yoda. Gotta pick up the pieces and start over after stumbling. But the goal is still there.
Had a crazy dream last night. Dreamt that i relapsed and was almost crying, feeling so bad i could not describe it here, it felt so real, i believed the whole dream, then i woke up feeling out of place, scared and worried. After i realized what went down, i gave a big smile and got back to sleep. Crazy what our brain can do to us.
...starting over to repeat the same mistakes. The part of the process of healing is to acknowledge your wrongdoing and name it, to understand why it happened to connect the dots, to feel deeply sorry and show your repentance and resolution to never repeat it again. Otherwise you are fooling your self of having any progress by in reality staying the same. Luke 7:31“To what, then, can I compare the men of this generation? What are they like? 32They are like children sitting in the marketplace and calling out to one another: ‘We played the flute for you, and you did not dance; we sang a dirge, and you did not weep.’ If you laugh about serious things you results in them bound to be laughable too.
however, there's little comfort in repeating the same mistakes over and over again. While the "right" road is also bumpy.
The comfort comes from ignorance-blindness of where it does lead to(hint-pain,suffering and despair are the pit we are bound to fall by following the road of little comforts) and the reserve of currency to pay for them which is called health. We never really know how much time we have to live on this earth but we behave like we are going to live forever and you better accept the bumps as blessings now, then at the end when it is too late to do anything but feel sorry for wasted life and health.
Day 313 no PMO. Great day yesterday until about 30 minutes until midnight. I had been watching football all day and my family left me to finish on my own and asked me to wake them up just before midnight so we could bring in the new year together. After googling something normal and landing on some random article I scrolled down and started to see some tempting images. Not porn but the kind advertisers use to get you to click on the next dumb article. Anyway I scrolled for a bit (obviously fishing) and then eventually stopped. Didn’t see anything. Didn’t click anything. Glad I didn’t slip. Last night while sleeping I had a dream that only luckily didn’t end up wet. Not sure if it was my mind stopping it or what. Either way I’m very lucky to still have my streak alive. Let’s all make 2022 better! We have come so far already and I know we can do it! Happy New Year!!!
Hi I am a newbie here. I am on day 3 now so I am an orc. So far I had not that many problems but I had also lot of things to do. I am excited about the journey. I am a huge fan of lord of the ring and I am ready to destroy the ring. I am glad not to take this journey alone. Greetings J
Sorry to hear bro. Learn and carry on . Your counter says "no porn", please remember that this is a no porn - no masturbation challenge. Thank you