Day 0 Unfortunately - want to be transparent so I looked at some sexy things on YouTube I actually searched for and then checked out the girls profile outside YouTube and saw she was actually working in the industry and saw some stuff on the way there. I will not do this mistake again. No excuse but I guess I gave into an urge a little bit. Didn't O but doesn't matter.
Made it through day 2 now. had urges this morning. Hit them up with a nice cold shower. Yeah, what a rush
Day 16, I almost slipped, googled some porn, wanted to test if everything was still working, one of the tricks your mind plays on you I suppose, luckily I stopped.
It will pass my friend .. this one return to the old cycle doesn't change the fact that you are way +90 and that you have really changed the course of your life to a happier alive sensitive (in a good way) ... just remember and I am sure you do that in a few days you will have a clear mind again and it isn't really starting from zero so the counter really doesn't matter it just keeps you more here so i wish you all the best and don't forget the real zero that we began with .
4/90- I have resumed my studies on toxic shame and I made some new discoveries about my 'false' personalities. Without reading, I would have known about these blind spots that affect my day-to-day living unconsciously. It made me cry, to be honest. But I also feel relieved. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my back.
Day 22 Abstaining gets easier with time. Stick to the system and be positive. I didnt stick to my system today, but im fine @bromor You will get back on your feet, you are a source of motivation to me. Keep it up. Stay strong you all.
I forgot that you have to start with Day 0 regardless of your counter, and there are previous challenges you have to finish first. I'm sorry for the mix up, I'll be taking part in the 7 day challenge and later on I'll procced to 90 day. So for now I'm out.