I relapsed. I had held myself away from arousing content. Then I fell slack during my online lectures, thought about chilling and just watching shows. I then searched for raunchy content on netflix. Then I thought to myself, let's watch stuff till midnight, and then start fresh from tomorrow, but i won't masturbate. Then I stopped for some time. After dinner, I started surfing for shit again. I texted a person I text whenever I am about to relapse. And then I chatted, and then downloaded apps, and I fapped. Damn, I was hoping for this whole year to be fap-free. I had restrained for watching porn for 23 days. I'm gonna have to start again. This time with discipline. I won't go on a streak. Don't need to be scared about things. You see, I always give in to homosexual stuff, and then when I relapse once, I try to neutralize it with normal porn, like heterosexual, girl and stuff, but this time I'm thinking, if I am straight, then I don't need to worry about fapping to gay shit. If I am not straight, then I can't try too hard to be straight, that'll just make me kind of crazy and pretentious and fake. So, I'm going to be whatever I am, but before all that, I need to really clear my mind of all this sex stuff. So, I am going to do NoFap. This one relapse is enough. I won't go on a binge. Need to figure out it all on my own. Yeah. Peace So, Day 0/365
