I hope you are doing well. You made it 8 days! This says a lot as I know how hard this be. What have you learned? Loses are beneficial to the greater war effort. I am thinking of George Washington who lost more battles than he won, however, he won the war. He learned from his losses against a superior force so he had to amend his strategy to just not to lose. This effort got him to the place where reinforcements could be had thanks to the diplomacy of Benjamin Franklin. He was able to get the French to help which made all the difference. SO I ask you (rhetorically) as you have no need to answer to me, but just take to considerations: what have you learned? What strategies could you have employed to make it to your goal? In these tight situations who could be your diplomat to call in reinforcements? How did your abstinence make you feel? Did you feel stronger and more confident as is proclaimed in some of the threads on here? Nonetheless, you have made this far and I am sure you can make it farther next time.
They joy of success. I finally feel I have a place to share in this conquest over my dirty secret. That is definitely one reason that my addiction has lasted so long: I have had no one I could confess to and not be judged. Therefore, it has persisted in the darkness of my mind. Now, I can bring to light my struggle, and break the hold addiction had in the darkness of my mind! Clean hands and a clear conscience, R3G3NT
Day 2. I've seen things I wish I could forget. When I think of some of the dehumanizing, degrading images I've watched I feel ashamed. When I get tempted to look again I try to remember these are real people being used this way for my selfish gratification. I don't want to support that anymore, especially since years of porn abuse/escalation led me into some of the worst kinds of content. I have made mistakes in the past, some recently, but all I can control is today. So today I choose again to step away from porn - away from its lies, away from its depravity, and away from its exploitation of both the viewed and the viewer.
I stand in agreement with you. Walk away, no, run from this darkness. I, too, have thought about how I used those people to my own end. I used them, an end, as the means to my end of orgasm. People should never be treated as a means to an end- no matter the circumstance.
I instantly feel better. I am beginning to feel the sensations that morph into an urge that refuses to be denied. I read others who are walking the same talk, and I feel peace, capability, resolve to overcome. Thank you all for being here.