The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Turned into a Nazgûl before ever reaching Bree.
Honestly, I would have been surprised if I didn't relapse at least once during my journey. Now I know one more trigger that I can do something about. So, I'm trying to stay positive.
I now installed SelfControl and blocked everything, except for 5 websites on my allowlist, for an entire month. This should make the transition into a new routine a littler easier. Watching porn on my smartphone or tablet was never an issue so having a solid blocker on my laptop should be enough.

Still, I'm pretty disappointed in myself.

Starting over: Day 0

 

Day 3 completed!!
Hope everyone was trying hard to win the challenge.
All the best guys.

 

What a great strike! surely the next one wiil be better! Identify our triggers it's a big step, keep strong sister!

 

Day 11!
Still sad for my recently broke up, but I know that was a good desition, so now trying to look it at the brigth side. Low urges yesterday but ALWAYS triying to control my thougths and what I see.

Keep strong my brothers and sisters!

 

Hello sister. Sad to read this, I know though that you can arise again, and go even further, and even more.

But I won't lie to you, it will be a little harder now, every fall has its consequences. You need to be determined sis. You can do it, you know you can.

 

Day 1

Well thanks to latest reset, my weekend was pretty much blown out of the water, couldn't be arsed to do much of anything; no movie night, didn't care to enjoy my latest switch game, and I didn't feel like decluttering my shed and house, just lay in bed and pretty much stare off into space.

The only silver lining is that it reminds me why I'm trying to quit this shit, and how much of a difference it makes. I'm definitely sticking to the old tried and true combination of meditation, light workout, and cold shower.

 

Check in day 141

 

Day 194

 

Day 6!

"My crown is waiting as soon as I get the courage to wear it."

 

Day 19

 

Brother! You reached one of the main milestones! Congratulations

Now you're a fellow wizard! May true wisdom guide you!

 

Congrats bro!

 

Checking in day 94.

 

Day 2!

 

Another check in!

Today was a frustrating and very tiring day, did so much yet achieved so little - because of this urges tried to take the best of me however I'm still up and standing, sometimes we really have to be strong on this.
Have a good evening fellas!

 

Day 16, checking in!

 

Well, what do you do? Study, work? the best place to know people and have friends is in the workplace. Be patient being an immigrant is not at all easy. Look for something that you like to do, there you'll find good friends.

 

Day 29 - The PMO forces were at our tail, but we crossed the Ford of Bruinen, leaving them behind.



The House of Elrond is in sight!



Hello fellows, I feel better today and I had a productive workday. Also, the urges returned but nothing to be worried about, there were not so strong.

Excited because tomorrow is 30!!! I am swimming in new waters now.

And the journey continues...

 

Good fight fellow! I recommend you always put the day when you check-in. If you have to reset and you return to this post you won't know what day you checked in.