Day 5 complete! Mmm, urges were strong today. Naps as a general rule seem to be a bad idea. They never actually fulfill their purpose of making me feel less tired during the day, and they usually open me up to being triggered. Even when it's 4pm on a sunny afternoon and I'm falling asleep over my philosophy reader, I think I should look for something else to do rather than trying to catch 30 or 40 minutes of sleep. St. Polycarp, pray for us!
Day 72 complete. I felt weak and had 37 degrees celsius body temperature so I didn’t go to work, I was resting.
Day 14! I actually forgot to do this yesterday. I've noticed that as I keep myself busy, time passes on this journey and my mind focuses less and less on PMO. I still have weak moments here and there but not as many as before. It's been a difficult couple of days. Mentally. Any other time I would have reverted to PMO. But I didn't. So that's a plus. Cheers to another day and big-up to all the other fighters out there!
Was a tense week and relapsed regrettably. Tightened my filters and updated my plans, not feeling sad or whatsoever, i was already seeing some major behaviour and habit improvements so im very optimistic. Progress is slow but progress nonetheless. Wish you all well Day 0 - Nazgul, Minas Morgul This time i will succeed.
Been away for a while, just kept messing up. I am ready to do this again, but I know I will need help. Back to the basics for me. Rules: No electronics in bathroom or bedroom. No instagram. Exercise and Meditate everyday. Follow triggers prevention plan.
Day 20 reached! Working every day in my discipline and my self control. Worried about the situation of Ukraine .
20 days Fellowship!!! Entering Bree. Nothing special to report, the same: fatigue, leg pain, demotivation. at least brain fog is low today . I don´t know what is it, it´s like i´m accustomed to withdrawal, i don´t get as frustrated as before. I accept and try to do my thing, despite the hardship. Today it seems a new war is starting, a real one . So i ask all Fellowship to guard a minute of silence to all the people that are suffering. In Ukraine and throughout the world. May we all strive to be better.
I say audiobooks count. I keep track of which books I've read on goodreads.com, and if I listen to an audiobook I enter it as having read it.
This is a great idea, you've got it! I need to meditate now anyway, so I'll start with a minute of silence on this subject before I move on. Thanks! As for me, I'm proud to at least no longer be a nazgûl.