The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 13 almost hobbit again, time flies by

 

Dawn of the 11th day.

 

Day 5

Not too bad.
More job interviews, more stuff happening all over other areas in my life…
This is the opposite of the time I was stuck paralyzed with covid.
Went to the gym yesterday. Didn’t look at girls as much as I usually do, so that is an upgrade.

 

Check in day 183

 

Day 11 - Uruk-Hai, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

Still kicking it

This time i will succeed.

 

Day 236! Like I've said yesterday, I moved to another city, I'm living with a friend now! Really happy to be here. God is so good with us. So many gifts

Great job man!!!

 

Day 4

I am beginning to get a new grip again.

 

Day 66!

 

13 days completed

It's my best streak since June 2019. And it's just starting.

 

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@RiseToGreatness brother, I am new to this thread, I just started NoFap day 0, I will break the chains of the ring of PMO, AND BECOME THE WHITE WIZARD!

 

Not relapsing had enough importance for justifying a complete wipe out to get rid of all this stuff.

 

Day 9

 

Day 9

 

Day 88

No urges towards PMO today, but I did experience significant temptation to begin flirting with a coworker. She’s a lovely person, and we get on well, but during a conversation I felt what I would consider to be an inappropriate urge to flirt with her.

Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t want to be vulgar or crude in my language with her, but I knew that my desire to flirt originated from sexual impulses and not romantic impulses. I didn’t flirt, but I’m a little annoyed that after all this time my brain is still acting like a caveman - then again, 88 days free from PMO after 11 years is nothing, so I should be patient.

 

Checking in: had another wet dream last night, my second during this streak of no PMO. My wife and I noticed that after my previous wet dream, my neurochemical reaction was similar to the way my brain works after ejaculation during masturbation or intercourse, but to a significantly lesser degree. I became a little more irritable, a little less interested in others, and a lot less patient and empathetic with her for about ten days. It was maybe 30% as potent an effect as it has been after PMO or sex. So I think that level of impact is encouraging generally for me, though I would prefer to retain semen all the time and not just when I am conscious.

Both wet dreams were very different; the first was explicitly sexual (graphic like a simulation where I was experiencing it first person) and solely about my wife, while the second dream was very non-sexual and involved a pet sloth and a treehouse in some bizarre way. The first left me unsettled and empty, the second left me baffled. I am hopeful that this time I won't have the negative after effects--so far I'm not sure since I've just been working all day and am still stressed out overall with life.

I'll carry on regardless--thanks Fellowship!

 

Day 7, trod on!

 

Day 3

 

Day 7 complete!

I'm happy to report that I took myself seriously yesterday; no more of the fishing or anything like that today. Having a week under my belt is always a good feeling, but I'm ready to go so much farther. Engaging my intellect rather than just my emotions has been helpful when fighting urges: asking myself deliberate questions like: Why am I feeling this way, What do I really want here, What else can I do, What's a constructive and healthy way to channel this feeling?

@Ready to Stop Congratulations on 400 days! I'm impressed and a bit envious that you found time in a day to walk 13.9 miles! I have occasionally run that far, but running the distance doesn't take nearly as long.

St. John Vianney, pray for us!