Day 13. Middle urges yestarday, but manage them focusing in my work. I want to change my strategy, I want to make this strike the last one. I want to tell to somebody that I know about this addiction and go to a psicology, any suggestion about this?
Checking in Fellowship!! 98 days, going good . Not the best sleep last night, and my energy has taken a little drop, but i will try to make the best of this day anyhow. Feeling slightly better in terms of reboot estability than yesterday Nothing more to add. Have a great day my friends and a great weekend ahead!!!
Day 133 Today was pretty positive; finished up at college with only two more weeks to go, and then had a good leg workout and steam in the afternoon. Spent a few hours working on my sermon, only need to tidy up the ending and rehearse it for a few hours tomorrow - feeling a lot better about it than my previous two sermons, but I just pray that the Holy Spirit uses me however it deems fit. Having a weird relationship with urges at the moment as they seem to being coming back with full force. If I had to guess I would say they are as strong as they used to be when I began abstaining from PMO, but I think this reboot has helped me recognise that I don't need to indulge them. Everything feels quite novel at the moment, as if I'm only abstaining for selfish reasons, but I must remember that my life is infinitely better without PMO and the side effects it causes.
Day 25 complete, nothing out of normal yesterday. The problem is today, i felt a lot of anxiety because a situation i had this afternoon and i notice that i wanted to fap so fucking bad to release this feeling, and then when i didnt do it i started fantasy being with a girl and feel loved. I really dont know if its ok to be with girls before 90 days reboot, i think its not but i really want to be with somebody. fuck
Day 4 Watched Karate Kid tonight and it summed up what I’ve been missing in my life and what I need to do. I have kept my strength and power inside and it’s time I brought it out. I have potency as an individual and I am dangerous. I have power. I have strength. I have a voice. I’ve realised I have a lot of power as an individual. But right now it’s too chaotic and it needs to be tamed. I’m considering signing up for Karate lessons.
Day 1 complete--Orc status. Today was pretty chill. I drove with my dad to help my brother move out of his college dorm, and that took up most of the day. It was nice having a couple hours with each of them just to talk about whatever we wanted to. Urges were absent. The first thing I did when I woke up was to grab my prayer journal and write on the inside cover, "I will not PMO today!" Our Lady of Fatima, pray for us!
Day 11! ( Uruk - Hai ) Have a nice day guys Be kind to yourself. Try to understand yourself, your weaknesses, urges “Don't count the days. Make the days count.” —Muhammad Ali