Thanks for the encouragement and advice. I actually went to the snake park and viewed live snakes from a distance. It was so scary. I don't I have sweated that much in a long time. So at least my fear levels have gone down a notch or two. I will continue to view snake pics as you mentioned so that my fear continues to level out. I will also view videos and research more information about snakes. I think they are greatly misunderstood. The guide at the park demystified a lot about the snakes and I think knowledge can go a long way to eliminate/reduce this particular fear.
Thanks for the encouragement! I really appreciate it. I am going to face my fears one at a time for as long as it takes. Some of my fears seem to be quite irrational to be honest. I will check out the video you have posted
Day 11/90; have been lazing around too much on Friday and Saturday, now I will have to spend my whole Sunday working on assignments nooooooo
Hey man, don't feel guilty about taking time out. It's important to have balance in life. Maybe if you feel lazing around Friday and Saturday was too much, next time just assign the Saturday for laziness? Laziness has its place, we cannot just be going ALL THE TIME or we will burn out. Good luck on finding the right balance
Day 2: well, for today I have managed to do some stuff instead of PMO: I have read entire book through the morning, I have managed to draw some and I have completed some tasks from my foreign language that I learn. I hope that next days will stay the same.
It keeps you focused. Same with the books. Try to re-place the PMO, YT or some other not so uplifting things with book. Also helps. Well, at least it helps me to fight the YT addiction
Starting over as of today Made it close to 30 days (27) Not my best effort but indeed the best its been in a long time.
Day 5 Man I am getting highs and lows don't know what to do I feel top of the world like i am moving someplace high and then get hit and grounded the another moment. I wish this don't go far. But I am not going to fap or watch porn at this point I have no interest in any sexual content or feelings I hope I pull through.
13/90- My energy is finally back to my usual levels. The last relapse took a lot out of me. Also my brain fog is almost non-existent. Learning data structures and algorithms has now become easier. I can once again sit on my desk and learn for hours on end.