Check in day 2 I'm collapse after nearly 300 days and I'm back again.But to be honest with you guys I don't feel that desperate actually I'm little happy because I know I can reach that point easily.You can said that I'm now more controllable of my self.So don't give up guys it's become more easy afterwards. DON'T GIVE UP
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 19 Days Free of PMO. Will be spending most of my time outside today, hope everyone is having a nice weekend. Stay strong! 19 days – Bree sends aid! Bill, a strong and kind pony, joins your quest by carrying rations and items.
it´s not bro. if others can break free from this, you can too . but don´t just jump restart. reflect, see what went wrong, and what you can do better next time. and remember that even if you fall, you´re no better and no worst, you have dignity, you have value! your worth is independent of circunstances. practice this, it´s crucial to debunk toxic shame.
it´s perfectly normal and expected to live in passion for life, everybody wants that. one of the reasons why porn is so addictive is the instant super drive that it gives. you got to discern what´s good for you and what´s bad. when you want bad things (porn, excessive alcohol, junk food, sugar binging...) to make you feel good, you need to root out the underlying desire. because a negative desire is usually connected to a emotional need that is not being met. so pay attention to that. on the other hand, when you want good things to make you feel good (alignment), please carry on
Sorry to hear bro, but at the same time, congratulations for that great streak. Yes, you´re in a great place to dismantle this addiction for good. Keep going!
Checking in Fellowship! boy, do i feel broken . Great day yesterday, great festival. i write a preemptive entry in my journal where i would only drink 1 beer with food in the festival, to set my mind. i ended up drinking 2 large beers, 400 mil each, and a shot of whiskey. oh well i feel like i slide on alcohol, so i´m gonna reflect and write a retroactive entry about that. anyways, overall, the festival went super well, i loved it, and my alcohol comsuption was way lower that in previous events. it´s still not my ideal, but it´s better. i did had to back off my drunken brother a couple of times, which was constantly bringing new stuff to drink. returned home at 6:30 am and i was so tired and sleepy, that i feel an urge to PMO. but i knew it was fatigue and lack of sleep, so i shut down the mobile, enter home, take a bath and crash on the bed. today i feel super tired and unstable (had a nap after lunch), but i´m always around my family, so these low hours will pass and hope tomorrow to feel better nothing more to add my friends. have a good day. love you.
Day 2 Work stress & exhaustion is starting to build up again, I will be super mindful about how to cope with it without resorting to PMO, otherwise relapse is inevitable without changing my behavior.
CHECK out Day 2 - everything is fine - managed to overcome 2 times the urges and 1 time some trappin' Did no routine but a solid workout and went outside to feel nature (for a walk=) Greets out - sleep WELL!
Day 12 My drive is still on the roof. Temptation has been following me everywhere. I have dirty thoughts and dirty desires. It really feels like Sauron has been following my steps. I really don't want to fall for the lie of PMO. Thanks @RiseToGreatness for the advice. I'll also use the flare method that you shared a couple days ago. Tomorrow starts another busy week, the plan is to get through each day by each day. God bless you brothers!
Day 4 complete! Quest Aid -- Song of Bombadil I failed to post yesterday, but the day was filled with some excellent exercise, a call to my family, and socializing with the priests including watching a Bond film. Nothing to worry about today either--the urges have been giving me a break. It takes guts to push through that emotion of shame and check in with us. When you do that, you're actually winning the battle! You need to have that knowledge to pursue your goals. If you were right and this is a losing battle, there would be no point in fighting. But still you fight, because this is a battle you can win! St. Ignatius of Loyola, pray for us!
53 (21 hard mode) days complete Day was fine, not a lot to talk about. Had an urge to search for images, I still have that urge and that's it.
Day 52, Went with my wife for a ride on the bicycle along the sea cost for 60 km. I'm really tired, I haven't ride such long distances never. Have a nice day brothers!
MO relapsed after having a really stressed out day. Not feeling down however, ive had long streaks and the last time i MO'd was aaages ago. Everything is a learning moment, i will never give up and stay honest to myself Holiday period is starting as of today, so i have plenty of time to recollect and reinvent myself further still super thankfull for having this forum and this challenge to always come back to and rely on Day 0 - Hobbit - The Shire