The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

50 Days Free of PMO.

Yesterday was a wonderful day overall. I had moments of pure happiness. Today, I aim to tackle and expand my exposure, I already feel the apprehension of anticipation. It's comical really, doing something that I was once doing effortlessly in the past, has now become seen as a threat to my mind. I suppose that is part of the bitter trade we get, when we isolate in comfort and instantaneous gratification, over a very long period of time. There is so much for me to learn still, but I intend to try my best at my capacity daily. I want to become a man that I am proud of.

Stay Strong!

@Gallade_Templar It's my pleasure brother, I'm not sure what your lifestyle is like but perhaps attempting to incorporate workouts, meditation and or prayer, journaling, exposure to your fears and pursuit of your purpose. These things take time, but they are worthwhile. PMO, social media, video games and TV have all taught us instantaneous gratification. Reward without effort, but that reward itself is not lasting. Reward from dedicated effort, longterm gratification and enjoyment of the process is really the key.

 

Good to hear!

 

But he should be very careful, I had read uncountable reports of relapse stating the reason that it was due to his gf, or more precisely they won't be able to handle the chaser's effect, so he should be little patient, cuz that thing can be a white fuel for his p*rn addiction. He should wait at least around 60 days, his attraction will work as self attraction, or he could too work, but my suggestion will be don't rush, be meaningful and wait for your addiction rope to get loose a bit or else you could be in worse condition afterwards.

 

I do connect with people. But not like I did when I was a long time with no PMO. It’s motivation for me.

 

1 day. Hard mode. I got this. Deleted dating apps last night. I am convinced my fall had much to do with me starting to try and date prematurely. I don’t think dating apps are healthy for me. God will bring a girl into my life when I am healthy. No more desperate looking.
Girls can sense that anyways. Nature will take its course when I stop watching porn. Which is now. I am done.

 

Huuge congratulations @Redemptionisrequired
Most likely we will reset one day but I have the fantasy that this is it, that this is our final streak

 

congrats brother! Keep it up

 

Day 126
Good night brothers!

 

Check in day 33

 

8/30/2022, completed

day 1 - No P / M / O
day 1 - No Psub / Arousal

 

Checking in at 27 days. Doing well, despite some life events that would usually send me in a downward spiral. Keeping up the positive outlook, learning from mistakes, and praying when things are just simply beyond my control.

 

Checking in day 291.

 

Day 52.

Almost relapsed several minutes ago. Typed some stuff I like into the search bar but deleted before pressing enter. Of course, this makes me sad. Is this all that I am? An animal, who is looking for every little chance and opportunity to get empty pleasure. Even animal sounds too good - they don't understand it probably, but at least they do that for procreation.

That bothers me a lot. I would like to come to a place, where porn, masturbation, empty sex are the things of the past. But that doesn't seem realistic. This sense, that pleasure is just several button presses away or just several thoughts away (yeah, I can masturbate with fantasies easily too), is annoying.

Pleasure, disappointment and pain several buttons/thoughts away. All my life?

That's all I have to say today. Time to make calendar for september. Whatever works, for now.

Previously 09.01. 1 pmo in 2020.
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Spoiler: Journey stuff

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Stuff that should help to not pmo:
1. No internet for recreational purposes until 6 pm.
2. Waking up on the same time every day.

 

Day 1 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 231 out of 242.

“Whether you like it or not, you are committed to the human endeavor. I cannot ally myself with such a purely negative goal as avoidance of suffering. Suffering is a chance you take by the fact of being alive.”
― William S. Burroughs, Letters to Allen Ginsberg, 1953-1957

 

Day 10 no PMO. Got a little distracted on the internet this afternoon but didn’t watch any porn so that’s good I guess.

 

Everything feels like a trigger... anxiety about dumb stuff too. I know the reboot must be behind this. I just gotta push through this wall. It'll be better on the other side, but it'll be worse in the end if I give in. Watch me survive this!

 

Day 20
Having success in creating balance with my work, faith and school. Times of high stress definitely make me more vulnerable but I lasted through it and now the urges are calming down and I can keep improving. Hope you're all doing well too. Good luck out there

 

Son of Gondor reporting in

55 days You reached Amon Hen, a hill above the western banks of the Anduin. By royal decree, you´re a Warrior of Gondor now!

 

Day 391 no pmo

Day 1 no sugar. Today was hard < It will get easier soon