I had a dream last night that I was sitting in my living room watching TV with a man that I knew to be my online persona. He was eating popcorn and offered some to me but I waved it away. Then he said, “you should let me take care of things because you are going to fuck it up.” At some point he stuck out his tongue and said “I got your nose.” I usually don’t remember my dreams and I think I’d preferred to not remember this one. but hey, my porn addict self is a part of who I am, I guess he wanted to weigh in on how things were going. 52/90 … haven’t fucked it up yet, buddy!
Day 33. Completed a third of the challenge, But I'm still depressed and sad. I'm trying to make progress but I'm unable to focus on the things that I really need for my life. I'm not able to study and concentrate. I'm trying to accomplish small goals everyday hoping to get better. No urges to watch porn and masturbate for the past week. That's it.
Day 0: I didn't pmo. Long story short I watched a porn sub in a tv series I was watching. I got triggered. Thank God I didn't pmo. But the sad part is I had a wet dream. I think the wet dream is caused by what I watched. I think watching the things you shouldn't watch as a human will have an effect on you sooner or later. This is like saying I can watch porn without getting triggered because my streak is 90 days. You're wrong!
90 day challenge complete for the first time in my nofap journey! Absolutely unbelievable! I thank all of you here on this challenge. This is only the beginning! Now I will focus on the 365 day challenge!
