Stay strong brother, it might not feel that way now, but every slip or reset is an opportunity to learn and grow.
Having failure to launch I'm dealing with some personal issues and I know that once I make peace with it, things will get easier. Until then, I'll give it another shot here.
Yes, I'm with you. I deal with depression and pmo is definitely a way to replace that dopamine. The problem is that there is a corresponding drop of dopamine afterwards, so it never really helps. My mind is not thinking logically when I break my streak. A good streak for me is just the biproduct of me getting my mind straight and some discipline, as opposed to all discipline and not feeling right. Good luck working through things.
Day 39. Check In. Workout day - 31. Had a hard time last night. Urges were high. I almost started to watch some triggers but then I realized that I can't give up this time. I am safe. What I want to write here tomorrow - Day 40. I am committed to that. I hope I will pass today successfully.
Day 352! Everything under control. Not serious temptations about porn. For masturbation not even close. No desire at all! ;-) keep going guys. Follow the light! Follow the right...
Day 40. Checking In. Workout Day - 32. High urges last night. But I have to give up fake, filthy, dirty pleasure which ruined my life for real pleasures. My music listening experience has certainly improved. This proves that abstinence can heal the brain considerably if not fully. I had never paid much attention to the involvement of brain, I was always thinking that it is all 'mind game'. But, physical organ must be there for a reason, if it is healthy it can surely improve life experiences. I now feel like I am on a mission to heal it. I know I should not be over confident about my will power. I wish I had found this nofap site and forum at least 10 years ago. I am here since last 3 to 4 years and since then my PMO has considerably decreased! Knowledge helps. Last few months (I guess more than 4 months) have been very good in terms of abstinence. I had 3 above 35 streaks, this current streak is 3rd of them, after joining this group. I wish this streak be my last and forever streak. I want to see what's real life, I want to see what is there on the other side, what is that purity, what is that manhood, I want to see it. Life is short and half of it is already gone so I can't afford to fail now. Keep going guys. It must be worth it. Because we DON'T NEED PMO. Living without it is only natural way of life.
I feel like shit. This binging has made me lose all the joy in my life. But I know things will get better. Right now I cannot imagine why I would ever want to do this again.
Aside from feeling so bad; what did you do? What steps? plans? actions? What made you succeed before? Whining and complaining does nothing.. What are your goals and what practical daily steps are you taking?
I will speak about my goal and motivation and action plan: I read the "dopamine nation" book summary (mentioned here in an earlier post- and in my journal), watched its videos, and follow its steps; so I started with a written plan of actionable steps for new daily habits (do this, stop that) Part of the steps is joining an accountability group (or having an accountability partner); started by joining here I understood, and planned for a 66 days to change this habit (my success threshold), now at 50+ (I'm close) Know and do is what I learned, so for each day I am learning something and applying it every day (my journal). Up until now its working because I am working, I am close to getting to my 66 days habit-changing goal, then I'd say thanks to NoFap, leave the forum and wish everyone success, and continue with my new habits and take my documented file and re-visit my notes to keep up the habit; and seek other new habits. Hope that my journey / way helps anyone
That 'Right now' may become 'always' in your life. Wish you good luck mate. Never give up. I wish the same for myself.
At this moment, I don't have a plan. I just quit. I don't want to go there anymore. It's done. It has nothing to give me. This isn't just some post-nut clarity, this is how I feel about it for the last few days.
Very good feeling and motivation; not having a plan however would keep you in the rut for years to come, as so many are. Resolve it good, yet you need more. Best!
Can you give yourself a change of scene, reconnect with old friends, start something new? I find that breaking up the old routine can be helpful in the first few days when you are trying to dig your way out.
