Day 05/30 Days with Scripture and intentional prayer: 02/07 Days with meditation: 02/07 Days with Walks/Exercise: 01/05 Days with online coaching hw: 01/05
Day 06/30 Days with Scripture and intentional prayer: 03/07 Days with meditation: 03/07 Days with Walks/Exercise: 02/05 Days with intentional recovery work (therapy, 12 step meeting, online coaching hw): 02/05 Meeting with my wife this morning in therapy to discuss our separation and next steps. I have no idea if we’ll be moving towards reconciliation, divorce, or staying separated/keeping status quo for now. Quite anxious. Trying to surrender it all to God. I want to move towards reconciliation. But trying to frame any answer as a release of the tension that this 90day separation been. Even keeping on with the status quo means that she’s not ready to fully commit to divorce, and there can be hope in that too, even though this is the option I’m most scared of. Praying also for my sobriety today. I am aware that if things go poorly in this meeting with my wife, I’m going to be in quite an emotional state of turmoil. And my intrusive thoughts have been planning for just such a moment all summer - the binge my unhealthy brain has planned for me… but I don’t want to give in or give up my own control of myself to such thoughts and actions. Emotional turmoil is when we need our sobriety the most. Praying I can find personal victory today, despite whatever outcome comes from my meeting with my wife.
Day 07/30 was completed yesterday. However, PMO’d this morning, so I’m back at day 00/30 today. Days with Scripture and intentional prayer: 04/07 Days with meditation: 04/07 Days with Walks/Exercise: 03/05 Days with intentional recovery work (therapy, 12 step meeting, online coaching hw): 03/05
Day 32 - 30 day challenge complete I couldn't post day 30 as I was on a meditation retreat but I'm posting now to update Thanks for all the support and encouragement. It's taken me a while to put this streak together. I will now move to one of the other challenges and try and make this a way of life. But - one day at at time.
