Day 55 You reached Amon Hen, a hill above the western banks of the Anduin. By royal decree, you´re a Warrior of Gondor now!
I'm a very busy guy sometimes, as I do my freelance work and busy in doing my work on laptop all the time. Also thinking about all the work procedures etc so it keeps me very busy and I do not get much urges to PMO. But When I'm free and have no freelance project work etc, I get all these thoughts. While I'm on my bed, scrolling news feed on social media or playing something on my laptop etc all these become a path that lead me there. I like your idea of home chores, perhaps I should also try that. I will keep myself busy now with doing chores, engaging with my lil kids and perhaps other things like going for a walk outside etc etc. And yes, it's a very good thing. Keep doing it, as it'll keep your progress on-going without you even realize that I am on a streak!
今天是今天是第七天，在中国的话准备到新年了，所以今天我把家里的卫生重新打扫了一遍，把家里面的拖鞋洗干净，然后擦干净桌子上凳子上的灰，然后扫干净地板拖一遍地。我很喜欢这个帖子，因为我感觉大家更有互动性，这样我感觉是一个大家庭的感觉，一起奋斗的感觉，而不是独自一人。我觉得最大的变化就是我感觉我更有精神了，没有那么困好吧，期待新的一天开始。
20 days Low urges yesterday, I hanged out with my girlfriend all the day. Worked out and took a cold shower Keep strong my brothers
Day 14 Pleased to have made it to two weeks so smoothly; I’ve found a good rhythm to keep me accountable, and my conviction has never been stronger.
Day 2: Finding The Battleground Today I went back to my old volunteer spot. Certain people seemed glad to see me which is always nice. Still, I've never felt like I fit there. Too many pretty girls that I don't know how to talk to and made bad impressions on in the past, plus it doesn't feed into a large enough purpose for me is what I tell myself; this is a dead end. I don't really know that though, it's not like I apply myself fully. Actually I don't even know what the problem I have with most of the people and places in my life is. I know I crave a greater connection and meaning, but there's something else... I crave impact, the feeling of breaking brave new ground. I don't know what ground there is that I can break right now though, I don't feel positioned well at this exact moment. I have to build towards finding that thing and then attacking it. I must search for the appropriate battleground! Maybe stop relapsing so your brain fog can clear and you can actually think straight, that might help! For now I will try to volunteer every day this week. I still don't have a new job since I left my last one in July. It's fine since I have so much savings and my bills are so low, I am not stressed financially yet or even close to that mark.
Day 8. Having a difficult time pushing sexual thoughts out of my mind. Went down a thirst trap earlier but pulled myself out of it. I'm hanging on.
Day 8 Very busy since yesterday. Feeling good dare I say great. But during the night I dreamt about porn. It wasn't even a wet dream I actually woke up. It is strange though. My brain is so hooked up to PMO that even if I avoid these thoughts during the day, subconsciously they are still roaming free. Maybe it is not that strange even. It is an ADDICTION, one that I want out of my life. Stay strong brothers. We can do this!
