Yeah, that's a lot, any one of these would be rough but all four would be extremely distressing, good on you for reaching out, hope you get some a break on something
Hope everyone doing good. Still clinging to the wreckage here, a lot of relapses but going to make an effort to be here more often. Enjoy the rest of the weekend!
Had a reset - but I’m already back to a better and longer streak since the last one. (Currently 9.5 days) I was off work and was totally away from my phone. It’s been amazing. I need to get back into the stressful world of work and cope as well.
This is becoming kind of a standard response for me, but it holds true, because it is true. You just got to try one more time than you fail. Good on you for getting back up again, you got this.
Agreed, well done team. Hope everybody's weekend is going well. I'm looking forward to semi productive semi restful Sunday. Cooking, Cleaning, Studying, Planning, Reading, Praying, and hanging out with friends (while cooking, and praying actually ) Does anyone else have plans they're open to sharing?
Been away , series of relapse, payed some extra money for p blockers, KINDA makes me Upset, but gotta do what you gotta.
Checking in, struggling mightily, really having strong urges, just don't want to stay on my routine, feeling really lonely and stuck in life, and worried about money. Need to get my discipline up and get into my routine again so I can keep studying and land a job soon. Going to keep reminding myself why I'm doing this and get devote myself to having a healthy and productive week so I can pick up some momentum. Finally, just want to express my gratitude for this community. I feel fortunate to have a place to turn too when things are rough like this.
I did MO today on my 300th day because I felt very sad that I don't have an erection during intercourse. I understood one thing - the freedom I have come so far is not in numbers, but the inner peace and healing of the soul. It seems that I am not healed yet, because I still have sadness and anger inside me, that by masturbating all my life, I have ruined my entire sexual life, that I am no longer able to fully perform sexual intercourse due to weak erections, and after these 300 days, nothing has improved and my erection was as weak as it was remained. I have to live on and accept it and then maybe I will be free.
I had similar experience. I think my erections are hardwired to visuals/porn. And during sex I don't get those signals so weak erections.
