7 months clean and happy

Thank you @BeachDude1992
We all can recover, it is tough and some times it seems impossible, but there is light to the end of the tunnel

 

Glad that my post helped you @The Fighter 1990
The good thing of being at the bottom is that every stEp forward will put you in a much better world
Do not lower your arms and keep fighting
Fercho

 

We need to face the tough reality: we are surrounded all the time by visual stimulus that will always trigger our urges and want to send us back to PMO
I was in the shopping center with my wife on Saturday and she wanted to but me some underwear.
Suddenly I was surrounded by images of hot guys in underwear, in very erotic and provocative posture , and this started triggering me .
I was trying to look somewhere else but this posters were all over.
My heart started pounding and my brain getting foggy.
I started walking away several feet until I got to a " safer place" and manage to distract myself looking to some children toys until the " flashes" disappeared.
I felt happy because I could manage to stand on my ground, 7 months earlier I would have taken several " mental snapshots" to use later in one of my PMO sessions.
In the past this would have not been a big trigger, because these images were a joke compared to the hard core porn I was used to consume.
But now this naive images made my heart pound and my brain getting foggy. I needed to walk away from that store because I was being bombarded by triggering images no matter where I was looking.
The positive thing is that now I am aware and could react fast. But the bad thing is that I think I will live with this shitty reaction the rest of my old life.

My point is: we will always be triggered and our brain will always want to drive us back to the addiction, but now we are aware and know how to fight this. This is the moment when we start winning this war.

Keep on fighting
Fercho

 

It is funny that you mention this @HopeFaith
Do you realize that two generations ago they did not have internet, nor nude advertising all around?
They were much safe than we are right now! I wonder which type of sex addiction existed by then
Fercho

 

Thank you so much @JoePineapples
I am glad my posts help you
Keep on fighting
Fercho

 

You can call it a monster, a Gremlin (like Mark Queppet likes to describe it at NoFap Academy).
Wherever you call it, is some type of primitive instinct that it is inside us and want to switch on as soon as we lower our awareness
Fercho

 

That is the reality @The Fighter 1990
We live surrounded by triggers, the trick for recovery is how to avoid those triggers to create urges for PMO inside our brain, which is what we have been doing for years.
I can see a great Ferrari and I know I cannot have it, I can watch a Dali painting and the same thing.
So why we want to have every hot chick or guy we like? Or if I cannot have her, why I would pretend that I am having sex with her in my mind while fapping or watching porn?
This is what I learned during these seven months.
I used to create " mental snapshots" of every hot guy to use them later as an excuse for PMO. I was lying myself, because that was not real sex.
Or even worst, I used to hire escorts and have sex with them pretending that they were not there for the money, but for me.
All lies that we build in our porn addicted brain, all lies that I learned how to stop as soon as they start to build up in my imagination.
Hope this helps
Fercho

 

Thank you very much for your support @ChundaKing
I will be alert all the time , do not worry
Fercho

 

You are right @powerd992 . We all can do it
Our brain must be stronger than out dick! We are humans, the most intelligent animal on earth, we should know better than monkeys right ? ;-)
Keep on fighting
Fercho

 

Great tips @trevor.james
Thank you for sharing
Fercho