It looks like all the relapses in the past year and a half have been slowly building my willpower. Fail your way to success everyone!
I just edged but stopped myself before orgasm. That's only the second time that I have been able to do that.
A relapse seems inevitable but I am going to take a cold shower and work out tomorrow morning to try to stop it. Ill keep you guys updated.
As a person whose last year has been defined by relapses, let me tell you this much : A relapse is NEVER inevitable, it shall pass. You just have to toss away your gadgets and self doubt.
Also, it's perfectly fine if you feel aroused a lot now, that will also normalise. The arousal is primarily just your brain trying to hook u back into PMO. At times like these it also is really difficult to look at the opposite gender respectfully, just lower your gaze for that.
The first week feels like hell, so just keep going, hit 4 days, then 5, then 7, then 10. Appreciate your progress brother, these are positive reinforcements that help us on the sub-conscious level to rewire our effed up reward pathways
I'm moving tomorrow and my nostalgia problem is out of control. I cant stop thinking about things I didn't even know I remembered. ugh
Also, if you have any tips like cold showers and exercising, Im already doing those. Wish me luck. Have a great day everybody. I know i wont
This. is. fucking. war. This addiction wants to try to destroy me with full force so i am doing the same.
This addiction is destroying me. I am scared. I have to fight as hard as it. I have cut off all sources of easy dopamine that i can.
I know what you mean. Loneliness is a trigger for me as well. But I perservere, I know I don't want to go down into the hole of emptiness that is porn. I believe in you!
Today I relapsed and I had enough. I deleted the doc that had my k9 password on it. The boats are burned so I can take the island.
Currently studying for exams. I am hoping for at least a B on all of my exams so I'm gonna be studying all weekend. No time for relapsing!
I successfully avoided urges today that would have easily destroyed me in the past. I am proud of my progress but will not let my guard down
So many assholes kept commenting on my thread about veganism. You can eat animals but leave me alone please.
No school tomorrow. School has been the reason for me not relapsing when I go on long streaks, hopefully I don't relapse.
I am going to pray to every god that I can possibly pray to and if any of those gods are real, hopefully they will help.
For your computer k9 is the way to go, http://www1.k9webprotection.com/ if you try too look something up that it denies it will make your computer act as if there is no related content in existence, i like that. i recommend you use a password generator with as many character as you can and set it for your account then write it down on some paper then hide that paper in another room.
For your phone it depends and im still working on completely porn ridding mine. For reference, do you use an Android or iphone?
Get an accountability partner! Stay strong buddy! You are on your way! Do you have a dayly check-in thread? All the best! /Baldur