Krillin1993

If I don't fight the longing for a Woman, I will never ever be happy by my own. This is finally clear for me. Loneliness is harder to fight than PMO itself. If you have a supportive Girlfriend or Wife this must be an easy Game for you I guess.

Bro can we talk?

sure

I always wanted to celebrate Christmas. I always wanted a girlfriend as a young Teenager kiss her and having Sex with her. I always wanted to go Partying like those other cool Guys. I hate the Religion I was born into. I wish never being born in a muslim Family. This is true bad Luck which will always follow me my whole Life.This is my sad Destiny I guess.

I will give up NoFap. My Life is lost anyway. I think I will never come back here ever again.

@Gustavo Borunda I don't agree with the Rule that premarital Sex is forbidden. I don't believe this is God's Word. This is Mans Word this is so crystal clear for me. This Rule is only meant to spread Monotheistic Religions and controlling those sleeping sheeps 24/7. This is a sick toxic way of thinking.

What do you feel about nofap? Is there anything that attracts you to do it? In my eyes there's no need to know why, just a need to feel that...

@Pangolyn I really don't know how to answer this. I have currently a deep Down Phase. I am at Day 164 . The only Motivation was probably how it feels when I reach Day 90....and I did it. Now I don't know what I want. All these Fantasies showing up...and I feel lonely again after a long Time. I'm a Looser.

I like your status very much. May I copy it to my status?

Sure :)

1. We are not getting a divorce, never! Besides, that is illegal in my country.
2. I am not hard on her. She doesn't have depression.
3. She tells me I make her cry on certain times we make an argument and have disagreements.

But we make sure we always talk about issues. That is pretty much normal in human relationships. I never intend nor willfully want to make my wife cry.

But she has her emotions and sometimes, she cries when she reacts to me. That's our dynamic as a couple. Though it is very seldom that we fight.

But at the same Time it is so sad to see that all Religions have devided us. Will we ever find true Peace and true Love?

Twitter is full of toxicity. I hardly go on it nowadays.

You want us to rate you as a 5 year old? It seems rather odd to me.

Okay forget the Rating....this sounds weird tbh...but man I was a really cute Boy. The only Thing what makes me alittle bit concerned about are those potential Pedos here. So maybe I am planning to post it one week before Christmas or so and take it off then.

In the Past she was sexually and mentally abused. And she begin to trust me...at least. She sees me as a peaceful and trustworthy Guy. Thats how I actually really am. Maybe these are the only 2 good Aspects that I have.

I hope for my Future Girlfriend to experience Healing for herself. And I hope that she doesn't see all Man as bad. I don't want to see Woman suffer. Simply because this breaks my Heart. Living in Peace and Harmony is possible my Love.

You are worthy of Love and I love you.

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLbAWUUMInPCI3Ri_lWYzL96NWF9VPmNbd&si=KmCH0YGO0dgCo8-S

....and then unfortunately this Man comes through my Mind. https://youtu.be/GM-e46xdcUo?si=3ark-AMmVdhn5YWB

Have you ever tried to lucid dream? If you succeed at lucid dreaming you can at least create a girlfriend for a temporary amount of time during the lucid dream, so you could at least experience this while dreaming.. idk what to tell you.. you seem pretty depressed to be honest... from a lot of your posts you seem really, really sad. Is there anything any of us could do on here to help you?

@500 I am surprised you spoke about it. Yes, lucid Dreaming happens to me and I'm currently want to have longer lucid Dreams again and also moreoften. And I know how to be successfull in it. The Answer is: Transcendental Meditation. I will meditate now for a longer Time (for 1 hour twice a Day instead of 20 Minutes) and then sleeping a very deep Sleep. Only then I can control my Actings from an awake Mind.

Yutaka Ozaki was a really good Singer and a really sexy Man. The same counts for the japanese Singer Toru Kitajima from the Band Ling Tosite Sigure. If I was a Woman I would probably have a Crush to that Guy.

maybe you can go join a dance class in your free time?

@500 Without having a Partner this idea makes no Sense at all...unfortuantely. But to be honest I would join a private Dance Class with my Girlfriend one Day and learn all Types of Dances in a Crash Course session....until then I dance alone for myself. :(...

Join a group dance class then.. learn how to dance, and then you can impress a girl with your good dance moves and get a girlfriend

you have two choices: be miserable or take responsibility: hit the gym (hire a trainer), dress like a man of dignity and improve your character to be socially man of honor.

@SuperiorMan95 I simply wish to vanish from this superficial World. Since the Death of my best Friend who died at a very young age, I am constantly pursued by bad luck. The only beautiful thing is to meditate and imagine my non-existing girlfriend with my closed Eyes.

A deep soul like you will find a GF. But u can't just expect a high quality one if you don't do the necessary things to be attractive to the best of your ability. If you already gave up then u have no chance. Spend your resources in mentorship or someone who can help u get out of ur mental rut. Best investment you'll ever make instead of laying in self-pity.

This is an interesting perspective. How very insightful.

Is it your original thought or perhaps a song lyric. I can imagine it as the latter.

@Azzure Thank You. No these are currently my thoughts actually.

I wish I could believe in God so I could say...."At least God loves me"....but I can't say this either. I'm so done.

Dude you can't cry just because of that.. She is probably very high standard especially allot of the channels I see.. I honestly don't feel anything for them especially when they attack other people. She probably has more problems then you'll never know making her self of something on a network to make herself satisfied..

Unfortunately I did many times and I know in real Life I can't say this to anyone just because I will be seen as a weak Man. People like supporting strong violent manly Charakters....and I am not. The only Success I have is finding a Job, repairing my Bicycle and quitting PMO. I'm a Looser maybe Woman should stay away from me because Nature want it that way.