1-year Rebooting Diary / Come join the movement

Hello all and welcome to the success thread,

If you are reading this, odds are, that you are one step ahead towards reaching the ultimate goal and leave PMO once for all.

The purpose of this thread to keep a personal journal, share interesting and motivational information, give and receive community support and most importantly, reach my goal of NOFAP for a year.

I have experienced both the harms of fapping and the benefits of staying clean. Reached streaks of 1 month ans then relapsed and failed tremendously.

Lately I am improving my life in so many ways (interesting job, lost 10kg, training a lot, eating very healthy, meditation, reading, etc.) but fapping keeps on turturing me on 3 very frustating ways:

- Kills my libido and desire to actually meet girls and I keep on procrastinating to answer messages, meet and even having sex with girls that I find attractive. My problem is that after I have masturbated 2 times per day, sometimes even 1, I lose interest and feel really lazy to chase these chicks. And even when I do, I kind of feel creepy and unnatural. Gotta sum as well my occasional performance anxiety and PIED. I feel that if I have fapped, that day I might not perform well and I wait for a day. Day passes, I fap and then again same story. Tired of this shit.

- After having watched porn for almost 9 years (currently I am 22), my fetiches have reached fucked up limits. I really get turned on by stuff that I would not like to do in real life. I feel that I have stopped enjoying sex in a physical way and switched to a very psycological way of getting aroused to finally cum. I usually watch girls who are being manipulated, drunk ones, tortured, humilliated, etc. As well, I do transgendered person porn and gay porn and developed some fetish for dicks. In real life I would not be able to enjoy kissing a guy but on porn I do enjoy watching and fantasizing about having sex. Regarding real life sex with girls, feels like I get distanced from the present moment and I need to think too much. I want to be more present and enjoy more my partner.

- When I fap too much I become more irresponsible, less focussed, less funny, my concentration decreases a lot and some other issues. When I did NoFap I experienced an overall boost in so many aspects of my life that now I want to have them all back. Really want to be a better version of myself.

Thank you very much for reading a part of my story, I will keep you updated and share with you this success story.

FEEL FREE to share your opinions, achievements and hard times.

Wish you all a great journey,

Cheers.

 

Very nice post about transforming the urges into just masculine energy

https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...ick-that-made-nofap-effortless-for-me.225583/