2 years, 2 months and 2 days in hard mode. A true miracle

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  1. Proxydore

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    Hello everybody !

    I want to share with you my journey. I ma so happy to share it with you, it is so beautiful that I feel like I'am dreaming !! 794 days without watching porn, without fapping and without edging !!

    Really the life is incredible without this sensation of shame and slavery to porn. I feel like I am no longer an animal that should lower his gaze to the world because he is addict to something awfull and immoral. I can look girls in the eyes without any unvoluntary tought. I can walk on the street feeling good, feeling myself, free from social fears.

    One year ago I wrote a topic about how I managed to stop. I reached two years doing the same thing :

    1- The most important thing to do, according to my little experience, is to understand WHY we should stop PMO for ever. If there is, in our head, a doubt, an hesitation about the negativity of porn in our life, if there is a part of our mind that thinks "Maybe PMO is not so bad for me, I should not stop PMO for ever, maybe I could just reduce" ect..., you won't succed, you will fail and fail again.

    Personnaly, I could not really stop and break away from PMO until, deeply in my heart and head, I understood this : "THERE IS NOTHING GOOD, NOTHING, ABOUT PMO. Stopping PMO would be a great thing for my life". My head had many objections to this :

    "Maybe I need masturbation, because they say that it is good for health, that everybody needs it." etc...

    2 - I stopped watching girls on the street. Everytime I see a temptation, I would change my eyes direction. I never look twice to an attractive girl or to something that could remind me porn or masturbation (like an AD on the street, on TV, a film that shows people naked, etc...) Believe me, this is THE KEY TO FREEDOM !!

    The "i only watch girl because they are beautiful but not in a sexual way" thing is MADNESS according to me, because one can't just separate things like this.

    3 - [THIS IS A RELIGOUS PART] I pray the rosary everyday. First, I praid God and the Holy Virgin in order to be freed from porn and masturbation. Now, I pray for everything. But everytime a temptation of sex comes to me, immediatly, without waiting, I turn my heart to Mary and say (in my head) : "Please, please, Mary, you know how I am, you know that without your help I would fall hard on depravation. PLEASE, give me your purity, your love, your strengh. Make the temptation go away, and give me the love of chastity, make me understand how chastity is beautiful" etc... . And EVERYTIME, my dear brothrs, everytime, it works. The faith is really the best weapon I found to fight against PMO.

    Keep it up my friends !

    PS : Please excuse my terrible english ! And I'll be happy to answer anyone who wants help !

    Pace e bene !
     
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  2. Son of Midgaard

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    Great to hear and be a part of your journey. hope it continues on forever!

    Take care
     
  3. Aryaa21

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    Nice to hear it. Really need motivation like this for going long.
     
  4. Son of Midgaard

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    I also believe spirituality is key, could you please PM me if you wan't to and have the time for some questions about it.

    Thank you very much.
     
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  5. Batushka

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    Sounds great i started yesterday with my first time without PMO after 6 years. i hope one day i will free myself to this madness, just like people like you.
     
  6. Son of Midgaard

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    I hope so too. Everyone deserves better then this godawful addiction.
     
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  7. mrsazay

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    Did you have to stop watching certain shows ? like game of thrones like shows
     
  8. Toven

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    This is inspiring
     
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  9. First of all, congratulations on the 2+ years! Very inspirational!

    Thank you for sharing your experience with being PMO-Free, and going without Ogling. It's absolutely what you said, what is required to get out of this problem is to admit to yourself the overwhelming negatives of PMO.

    With the lifestyle change of getting rid of Porn (and it's grasp) from your life, there can be happiness -- I mean genuine happiness -- eventually gained. I honestly believe that the other lifestyle changes that you can make while you're recovering from PMO, can help you build towards an extremely enjoyable and productive life.

    You're definitely doing something right to have been PMO-free for this amount of time. Wishing you all of the best on the rest of your Journey.
     
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  10. Harry Maclad

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    This is really motivational. Its really amazing to hear someone who has went sooo long without masturbation and reported nothing but benifits! Keep up the good work!
     
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  11. NewLifeForGood86

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    Wow!!... from a porn addiction to more than 2 years clean hard mode. I take my hat off. It’s stories like these that are truly inspirational to me, because this is how far I want to go and beyond. It’s stories like these that tell me that it’s possible and it’s worth it.
     
  12. smit_panchal

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    thanks a million !
     
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  13. lola lulu

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    amazing, keep going, best wishes :)
     
  14. Prem_Raja

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    Keep it up !!
     
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  15. Toven

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    I look forward to being able to say the same one day :)
     
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  16. WeWillMakeIt

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    interesting thing about being religious and praying is that i am not that religious at all (i pray maybe 10 times a year and visit church 2-5 times a year) YET whenever i do pray, i get same results as you (it actually works).
    So even thought i don't consider myself as religious i can say that prayer is one of strongest weapons for me to (in my case 5 min praying is better than 30 min meditating).
     
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  17. C B

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    This is inspiring, thank you for posting!!! I can't wait to get where you are, but I've got a long ways to go :|
     
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  18. Proxydore

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    Hi everybody, and thank you all for the replies !

    Yes, absolutly. I try not watching anything that could trigger me. And I noticed I live much better without watching anything violent at all. When it is socialy impossible to flee from watching something with triggers or violence (like when my older brother want to show me something, or when I am with my friends) I watch a little bit, and then I say "excuse me, mate, I think I'm becoming to much sensitive to this kind of stuff, I can't watch it anymore !" I don't hesitate, I chose to be clear and transparent about my lifestyle choices : they all know that I'm a christian and not masturbate anymore. First it was very strange to talk about it with my friends, because I live in France and being christian is considered very odd here. But now, they all respect my choice (and sometimes, they tell me that they want to quit porn too !)

    [RELIGIOUS PART, please excuse me if you're reading this and you're not religious !] Awsome ! My friend, if you do this everyday, I can promise you great results. According to my little experience, the key is fidelity to your engagement of praying EVERY DAY, and faith about the love of God for you and that he will absolutly grant your prayer. Ask the Virgin Mary to free you, SHE WILL, it is that simple !

    And to everybody I want to say : IT IS REALLY POSSIBLE TO STOP THIS CRAP FOREVER !! But alone, it is very difficult : we must pray our Father with perseverance, humility, and also, with boldness !

    Matthew 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you."

    Pace e bene !
     
  19. mrsazay

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    Thanks for this information, please stay strong in your faith. I will build mine to be stronger to be a true representation of a child of God. why is it odd to be a christian in france ? i try to learn more information now so if you can please share. Also a strong christian song for my brothers who are in this journey "Finish Strong - Jonathan Nelson" great song we all going to finish strong no matter the challenges now
     
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  20. Proxydore

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    Hello mrsazay, thank you very much for this beautiful song !

    Well, France is mostly atheist, and religious people are often considered strange (or retarded !) because believing in what they call a "old myth" looks like a mad idea to them. At the same time, people here is very respectful and interested about believers, because there is a lack of spirituality and transcendance in our socity. So they look at you as a mad man, but also with curiosity and respect, as a man who, perhaps, hold a secret and forgoten treasure.

    I am sure the Church has great future in France, notwithstanding the big crisis of religion in the country.
     

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