24 Years old, have been PMO since 13 years old. Need some info.

Hey NoFap! I'm excited to finally shake this damn habit. Here's a little about me:

My older brother introduced me to my first porn website at 8 or 9 years old. At about 13 I found out I could masturbate, which lead me to 11 years of PMO. I have had gfs before, two of which I've had sex with. Both times were disappointing for me (and probably for them), because I would get hard, and then it would deflate. I tried See-Alice , and it worked very well, but there was a lack of feeling. I want my sexuality back. The past month has been absolutely AMAZING, because I've abstained from PMO more than I have in years. Only watched porn 3 or 4 times in the past month, and PMO'd only 3 times (vs probably an average of 2 O's a day since 13). So here's what I'm wondering:

1) Tonight I PMO'd, about a 15 to 20 minute binge. Yesterday I edged, initially to softcore (i'd say 3 minutes watching), then I just stopped watching and finished the edge (not to climax). Before yesterday I had successfully abstained for a week. A week and a day before yesterday, I had started a 2 day 1 PMO per day thing. For 10 days before that I had successfully abstained. It sucks relapsing, especially after all of the good effects I'm feeling (and I just want to get withdrawals over with). Did I set myself back all the way to ground one here?

2) I've had trouble not feeling sex or blowjobs in the past. I go to a sexologist who told me that basically I conditioned my penis to respond only to my hand (because I know exactly what I want). Have many members experienced this? Does it go away completely?

3) Final question for whoever's interested... I have done a lot of research on the efficacy of Penile exercises for girth. I'd like to spend a few months trying PE, but I want to prioritize my recovery from porn first. Is it possible to do both without dramatically slowing down the reboot process? Feel free to convince me that PE is bs, I love hearing arguments against it).

Thanks for whoever participates!

 

I'm still more outgoing than I was before I started the journey. I'm 1 day again, which is nice. Yeah I really want to PE, but I'm going to leave it until after I'm cured of this. I don't want to have to fantasize to do the girth portions until I have a healthy sex life. My trigger was I asked a girl I've been crushing on for a while if she was has a bf, she said yes. So I came home and one thing lead to another. Next time I should just go to a public place and mingle a bit I guess, instead of returning home to reflect so soon.

 

I'm a software developer, currently unemployed. I'm working on a product that I'm going to put on the market soon. It's going to be hard for me to be away from my monitors. But I'll make due.

 

I wish.... my app requires two devices, and I need the screen space. Also since I powerlift and bodybuild, I need to have access to quick food. It'd require a major lifestyle shift, and a whole lot of carting of equipment around.

 

Ok, I reset today. All because I was at my computer at home. I started thinking about my fetish in the privacy of my room, and next thing you know I'm at the google searchbar like a rabid dog. My mode of operation throughout this process is... every time I reset, I will change my habits cumulatively. So now... I will put my computer and monitor in the common room permanently, ban all smart devices or computers from private spaces (bathroom, my room, etc...), and spend at least 4 hours a day with my monitor, laptop, and testing phones out at the library or other public space. I had k9, it started interfering with my work so I deleted it. I was sad to do it... it actually worked because I felt I owed it to the k9 lawdog to not look at porn. Also, I'm going to get a counter finally. And you know what? I'm going to write in a "porn journal every day."