@x_Nocturnalis_x Remember, you need to have a lovely wife and kids soon! Keep this target always in your mind.
Sounds good that you are getting them under control. I'm feeling like crap today, probably will be for the next few days, I guess it's just this feeling of failure. But should bounce back fairly quickly I hope. Thinking about getting some sort of pet. Right now it's just me living by myself, and I work from home 4 days a week, so the loneliness is quite palpable. A pet should help tons though.
There is a technique documented here that involves breathing, and actually works pretty good at reducing urges: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...-blue-balls-and-wet-dreams.54030/#post-439341 Not really as good for stress, though I guess reducing urges would destress you as well.
Thanks very much for your warm welcomes. I’m looking forward to engaging with the group on a regular basis, and I can feel the positive vibe really helps with each persons unique struggle. I’m still going okay at the moment, but have just booked my flight to New Zealand for three days, which will be one of my biggest struggles of being alone in hotels. I’m preparing now to keep myself busy.
Very productive day, maybe feel lonely but I do enjoy my own company. People can be rather disappointing and aren't nearly into ''putting in work'' as I am. Will listen to this and be happy: BE INSPIRED! "The here and now is all we have, an inspiration to make the best of it." -Richard Dawkins
Day 62. Checking In. Workout Day - 50. Lack of sleep last two days. Hardly slept 10 hours in two days. I have many times struggled with sleep, I am not sure if changes in brain causes this but I suspect it. Other thing is I keep looking at mobile before sleeping which is bad I want to stop it somewhere. Listening to classical music before sleep seems to calm me though. Music listening experience is getting deeper and deeper. Though I can't identify the notes clearly, I am almost there. I hope one day may brain rewires to music. I really wish to have that experience because I have had experienced that back in 2007 when I was a student and learnt music. This filthy PMO took that away from me and I didn't even know that until last streak! Holy shit! My life could have been totally different! Poor destiny.
Hey everyone... Well, from what I understand in this phase , masturbation is not anymore my problem. I have enough resistance to M, especially as long as I don't provoke myself. Porn is something I'm definitely more addicted to. But in the end I think, all this doesn't start from the desire to watch porn, but from boredom and laziness. Trying to fill my free time and choosing instead of something productive or truly entertaining, something more easy and fast. All starts by searching at the news and ends up with news possibly involving actors or models. From there leading into looking pictures of them. Then looking sexy or naked photos of them. That's where boredom and surfing eventually stops (thank God). But not always (!!!) still, is a big waste of time and a bad habit remains. Still haven't learned to use my time and be happy with it. This laziness and nakedness clouds my mind... It becomes the Trojan horse for all this disease to survive in me even if I fight it, even if i can last one year without M or actual P
I’ve walked down that road many times. Similar for YouTube surfing. Just need to stop the surfing, fill my time with things that are actually nourishing, and recreational, instead of depleting and attention wasting.
@artifact @koalaone thank you so much, I’m quite grateful to be a part of this. It’s been a long week-wrapped up in long hours at work, marriage problems (wife and I openly talking about divorce). Just want to be free of PMO-I relapsed on 1/11 after work-fueled by depression over feeling trapped-I should have got on here. I have felt my world spiraling out of control since the end of November-my dad almost lost his life and had to be hospitalized for a week-going through the uncertainty and caring for the needs of my parents, dealing with a depressed and angry wife who is verbally abusive and who I discovered having a secret drinking problem, and stopping working out (was my outlet from the stress of work)..not associating with my friends and just spending more and more time at work..And getting sick with flu for 2 week…I had a rough month of relapsing in December. I’ve relapsed twice this year..I don’t want to keep continuing down this road. I must stay connected with this group, and read about how each of you are doing your best to stay clean.
Belated congrats to @livinginhell and @x_Nocturnalis_x on reaching 60 days! I was busy with work and I feel like I missed out on the opportunity to offer congratulations and support to my comrades on this milestone. It was entirely accidental that the three of us reset our counters on the same day, and I don't think anyone noticed until we were a couple of weeks in. It has been a great help for me personally, considering I'm having my longest streak in almost 2 years. I actually think it's something that the members of this group should consider doing deliberately. Like, pick a particular future day, something like "next wednesday", and anyone who is interested can reset their counter on that day. This way you would have a group all facing similar challenges at the same time. Team work makes the dream work!
Thank you and same to you! I feel good that we three achieved this together. @Low Tide High Tide I second your advice, it is a nice idea to deliberately start on given day and view it as a team work.
3 days in a row at the gym and feeling great! This weekend will be recovery, but still being active work around the house. starting to see light in the tunnel at work, more easily manageable with good help and teamwork! personal life is still somewhat dark: my wife and my mom are not talking to each other, too many hurt feelings. Not much I can do about that, except love both of them as best as I can, and love myself.
Settling into the run again, will probably not think about it too much and let it happen. It's no longer a challenge, it's just a way of life. Will still do weekly check-ins though.
