I've just been busy with stuff. Worked overtime Tuesday and fell asleep when I got home and didn't wake up in time to update the ranking that day. Sorry about that.
@BlueOrange1 - congrats on your 30 days as of 2 days ago. You have received the 30 Day Sun of Hope Award. Keep on rockin'!
It's okay captain! I was just curious because no body commented. Thank you for the update. Good to know that you have got good sleep while I always struggle for enough sleep. Thoughts come to my mind when I go to bed and I just can't forget the world. Same thing happens when my sleep gets disrupted I can't sleep again and sleep remains incomplete always. I am a overthinker I guess but I can't help it.
I think I am not seeing enough mental benefits of abstinence yet. Am I doing something wrong ? Lack of motivation, apathy, anxiety, procrastination, laziness is still there. I also feel lonely all the time because always having arguments and fights with this long distance "girlfriend" of mine and we stop talking for days and again we start talking and shit happens again. I don't know what to cope with this and my loneliness. Also, same thing happened in terms of my workout, once it got disrupted I am unable to make it discipline again. Feel low in energy too. PMO wise I don't even want to look at P. I know the progress is not linear but my patience are at 'real test' in the battlefield. I don't know when will I fully get recovered. I felt real good mentally during second month i.e. 30 to 60 days , a lot enthusiasm, energy, confidence was there but now it doesn't feel like that.
What might have happened is, you still have the benefits from 30-60 days, but now you're just used to them. What I've noticed about that confidence and motivation: - It feels incredible when you get it. - After a couple of months you get used to it, and it becomes the new normal. - You don't notice when it goes away. (Because everything just sort of goes numb) I'm feeling amazing at the moment because I'm getting a streak back up again, and it feels as good as last year when I was getting a month for the first time. But I definitely couldn't tell you when I lost that feeling, though I know it was sometime in the past month.
Checking in. Things are going ok. Keeping it one day at a time, recovery is still the most important thing in my life. I keep all doorways back to it/it to me firmly closed. Thankfully for the moment the desire for a free life is stronger than any desire for PMO.
Hi guys. Checking in. 200 days tomorrow. Although my life has not changed much compared to the days when I watched porn all the time, I feel this deep satisfaction that I am not a slave of porn anymore. The feeling of freedom. Like I got back a part of the brain that was taken away from me before. Now I see how bad and how unnatural this habit is. All those attractive women on the screen, it's just a tone of bullshit designed for the sole purpose of enslaving us. Stay strong brothers
Relapsed again. I'm trying to lose a bit of weight at the moment, so that with added work and life stress just too much sometimes. Gotta keep trying
Been having a pretty good week. No urges or thoughts except for last night. Felt tempted to check out some p-subs but was able to stop it after a while. So far this week: 5 days meditation 4 days exercise 3 days consciously developing healthy habits, practicing piano and guitar
I'm still new to this journey so I don't qualified to give any advice. Please know that your presence in this community is incredibly helpful and important to us all.
Thanks for your nice words. Yes, I am still on track. Because from 2.5 decades of experience I pretty much know that, if I relapse or leave this place it will be worse. At least this path will lead me to some good place and relapsing is definitely the wrong way to go. So, I am holding up. You are doing great too.
You got the point here. May be I am used to them but it doesn't feel enough to push myself towards other things. Something is lacking, may be it is just my mind or can be a long trick of my brain trying to give me an illusion that it is not working so I should relapse. Also, lack of sleep, overthinking can be the reason.
There is a very annoying trick my brain tried to play on me in the past: - You're not feeling the benefits you thought you would be getting. - Maybe you overestimated how good you would feel after NoFap. - Maybe you've already reached the limit of what benefits NoFap can give you. - Maybe you've mastered NoFap, and can now consider yourself successful. - Maybe you're at the point where you can fap every now and then, as long as you don't look at porn. After all, you're not planning on giving up fapping forever, right? - Maybe it was a bad idea to fap that one time, as two days later you're now looking at porn again, and all your self-control is gone. - Start from 0. The thing you're lacking is probably something external. I'm trying to do a bunch of things in this direction... keep my house cleaner, find more excuses to leave the house, trying new restaurants, exploring things outside the house just for the hell of it. Cutting out YouTube is definitely a big help as well, and I think in the future I might ban (or severely limit) the amount of time I spend playing computer games... I suspect doing these things will give me even more motivation to go out and do stuff.
Checking In. Day 114. One good sign is my music listening and understanding is growing day by day. I like it very much because it has been my lifetime dream to appreciate music. I am very sad that I lost so much of life just fapping. May be this indicator is enough for me to convince that I am doing right thing.
