45 days ....benefits.

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Hary11, Jul 20, 2020.

  1. Hary11

    Hary11 Fapstronaut

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    greetings
    I am a porn addict , on hardmode nofap , its been 45 days that I have NOT masturbated or looked at porn

    why am I doing this ?
    I have been watching porn since I was 12 may be , I don't remember , but since last 4 years I was jerking of 2-3 times a day , which took a heavy toll on my health ...like?

    -hairfall
    -weak eyes
    -bad skin
    -digestion problems
    -anxiety
    -depression
    -low self esteem
    - low confidence
    are the reason to name a few
    the most important is my digestion problem , it is for this reason I came across nofap and decided to give it a go

    now , in my last streak I came across a mountain of withdrawals , I must tell you that they will break you , be prepared for it , they will punch you in your face and you will not be able to do anything

    my withdrawals
    - heavy anxiety (I have a history of anxiety but this was something else. just like a panic attack 24/7 )
    -heart palpitations
    -insomania
    -paranoia (over eveything)
    -no concentration
    -it is this time when I developed HOCD because of my anxiety and paranoia - just random thought of what if I was homo and boom HOCD came crashing on me (never watched any homo thing , never was attracted to same sex but still , you know it when your mind makes you a fool)
    -etc

    benefits in these 45 days
    - better skin
    - better energy in gym
    - better voice
    -better concentration
    -better focus
    -better eye contact but still long way to go
    - less anxious (about 40 % less)
    -less HOCD thoughts (about 50 % less) WOULD BE HAPPY TO LEARN FROM YOU GUYS
    -Less depression
    -want to achieve in my life , previously I just wanted to jerk off and watch porn nothing else , my life was sorted


    now a question , PLEASE HELP

    sometimes I feel I am on flatline and don't have any urge to even think and look at my crush (which confuses me a lot ) and sometimes I fantasise about my crush , my future with her , how can I get her , how can I connect with her on emotional level and it floors me

    my question is - is this normal when I don't have the urge ?? and also when you don't feel horny
    it makes me think as if something is wrong with me , why don't I feel like fucking , why don't I want to have sex.
    I know it is because I was heavy into porn and was just thinking about sex all the time

    is it normal to not think of sex every time , every second of the day ? if I don't it makes me anxious as if there is something wrong with me
    please help and guide TIA

    thanks
    regards

    remember

    BEING CLEAN IS THE ONLY OPTION YOU HAVE RIGHT NOW
     
  2. marekasap

    marekasap Fapstronaut

    well done, keep going!
     
  3. Stragler

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    Good job man! 45 days is a great milestone. I don’t think it’s normal to think about sex 24/7 but that is something Porn definitely makes much worse. It’s normal to have a sex drive but it’s also possible for a man to have control over his thoughts. Doesn’t come easily but can be done. For me having multiple 60+ day Hardmode streaks has helped a lot but I’m still not there yet. The idea of having 2 calendars is really helpful in seeing your progress with PMO- one calendar showing number of times per year and one showing streak. Limiting number per year will show your overall progress in breaking the addictions chains.
     
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  4. HopefulAndrew

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    You’re fine bro, i have suffered from OCD too, and had HOCD in the past, i would easily freak out too, like when i’d see a hot chick why am i not aroused? Or it’s been two days why haven’t i felt horny enough to want to masturbate? Why didn’t i imagine about having sex with the hot chick i was talking too? Why am i bot constantly aroused? That’s because normal people aren’t in a constant aroused state, or imagine about have sex constantly, that’s our OCD messing with our minds.
     
  5. Dag

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    Hey dude.

    What did you do to reduce depression and anxiety?
     
  6. Prince6543

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    That's normal.
    Men are meant to be aroused during sex, not just by looking at a girl. That was porn what made you get aroused just by looking at your crush. You're sexually attracted to her and that's enough. You're good.
    You said you had HOCD. Why do you think you are gay? If you were even gay, you wouldn't have changed the reality. So thinking if you are gay will do no good to you.
     
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  7. Prince6543

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    Just do NoFap and soon your will reduce it.
    If you wish to make it faster, add meditation to it
     
  8. Ricardo26

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    What do you mean with better voice
     
  9. Osl0

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    I'm glad for you pal, take care!
     
  10. domasfernandez

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    Will I be cured if I have erectile dysfunction?
     
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    Brother do you also have Ed?
     
  13. Asdor22

    Asdor22 Fapstronaut

    No, but many guys here have. And from what I know it tends to get better :)
     
  14. domasfernandez

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    Brother can you tell me what should I do, kegels or reverse kegels?
     
  15. Asdor22

    Asdor22 Fapstronaut

    I´m not really sure man. Sorry to say but I never heard about those before. :/
     
  16. domasfernandez

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    Fine bro
     
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  17. healmyself321

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    Its all normal my friend,your brain is healing,keep going!
     
  18. domasfernandez

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    Will it cure my ed, what say?
     
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