7 years of recovery.

So I guess this is it.
The first leg on my latest attempt to quite porn.
I've done the "successful" porn challenge before: hard mode for 30+ days.
But for some reason for the past 7 years I haven't been able to stop.
I'll break it down.
I'm a 21 year old Canadian with a good job, and amazing family, great friends, and great opportunities in life that I keep wasting.
My life is seemingly together, but beneath the surface their lurks a disgusting evil.

I've been addicted to porn since I was 14, I remember the first time I saw it very clearly.
It's never been "that bad" though. I've never had any desire to watch the "hard stuff" I can go for days or even sometimes weeks with out PMO. But still, not matter how hard I try, I can't quit.
Sometimes I hate myself, and I'm often angry at myself. But I still can't quit.
I've tried just about everything under the sun, accept for this... (at least this seriously.)
I think my problem is that I've become apathetic. I've always been 'almost there' so I stop really fighting.
This wretched cycle of PMO HAS to stop!
So here it is. Day 1 of the rest of my life.
Wish me luck.