A question to long time rebooters

Hello my friends,

today I want to ask a question to you long time rebooters out here, who made it to a year or more without any PMO. I started quitting Porn and Masturbation in August last year. In these 15 months I had a few resets. If I remember correctly I watched porn about 3 times and also MO'd to it 2 times. The other times it was either just MO or MO to some psubs. I never had a fullblown relapse or binged. My major streaks were 191 days, which ended a few days ago and a 137 day streak.

When I now compare the different stages I've been through and the first 'long-time streak' with the last one I would say that there are major differences. I generally feel more stable and confident and have less super sad times. These super sad times happend quite often during my first 90 day reboot between the days 30 and 80, this was really such a tough time for not returning back and I'm grateful that I wasn't confronted with much stressful situations in this time, cause really rebooting was a big challenge itself. I experienced such a big black hole in this time.
During the following streaks and the second long time reboot I didn't experienced this very intense emotional state. It felt like I was mostly detoxed from porn and left the major withdrawels behind me.

So what I want to ask you guys: After going for 300 or more days without any resets or 2 years and longer without any major relapses... Do you feel like you still enter a whole new experience of freedom after let's say adding another 100 days to your current streak? It's somehow strange but in this 2 longer streaks both times after reaching about 100 days I felt like a huge inner fire to totally cross inner boundaries. Both times I totally went out of my comfort zone. But this feeling also decreased again after a few days. Have you experienced the same? ... Are there still major 'break-through' moments to come?

I mean to me it would make sense that even a year of abstaining after watching porn daily for a decade could not be a total detox. At least I hope so, because this somehow gives me motivation to continue and hope for more. But I also think that after reaching a certain amount of days the development is in our own hands. Then we have to overcome the remaining addiction by exposing us to our fears and accept our lifes challenges. So I feel like after a certain point the basement is there and we have to gain further changes by taking action, because the automatic detox has mostly happend.

I hope it's clear what I'm trying to say and ask. Would be very interesting to hear your experiences.


Regards,
vibemaker

 

Cmon guys. Where you at?