Ahmad's Introduction

Salam, everyone! My name is Ahmad, a 21 year old a Muslim. I'm grateful to be a part of this supportive community. It takes courage to acknowledge and address our struggles, and I commend each and every one of you for being here. Today, I want to introduce myself and share my journey with PMO addiction.

For years, I have battled with PMO (Pornography, Masturbation, and Orgasm) addiction, and it has had a significant impact on various aspects of my life. It took me some time to fully understand the detrimental effects it was having on my mental, emotional, and even physical well-being. But now, I'm committed to reclaiming control and finding healing.

A little bit about my background:
Actually, I have known about things like pornography and masturbation for a long time. It started when a bad friend in elementary school told and influence me about them. At that time, I did not understand what they were or that they were sins. I tried them and became addicted until I was in middle school.

In middle school, I realized that it was a sin, but I could not control myself. I was depressed because I was bullied by a school friend and often felt lonely. This led me to commit that sin for years until I was in high school.

In my final year of high school, I realized that I had to repent to Allah immediately. My life had become chaotic and worse, and I felt far from Allah because I had filled myself with sins. I repented before the month of Ramadan in 2021, and I cried when I realized my mistake. Since then, my life has become better, and I stopped committing that sin. However, I struggle to socialize with others because I am an introvert.

Recently, in August of last year, I felt very lonely and started looking for entertainment on the internet. I found Omegle, and it led me to sex chat, watch pornography and masturbate again. I became addicted once more, and my heart was completely broken. Although I promised Allah not to do it again, I fell into that sin again. Every time I do it, I pray for repentance and cry. This cycle continues until now, and I feel like I always violate my repentance.

I hope my addiction stops forever, and Allah helps me find people who can be intermediaries in curing me of this disease. Although I have controlled myself for two days, I am still in a condition that is adrift and has not become a strong Muslim. I kindly ask for any support from fellow Muslim brothers in this forum

While this journey may be difficult, it's important to remember that progress is possible. I have already taken some steps toward my own recovery, such as seeking therapy, practicing mindfulness, and building a support network. But I know there's still a long road ahead, and I'm eager to learn from all of you who, especially Muslim brother, have been on this path for longer.

I'm grateful to have found this forum where we can share our thoughts, struggles, and triumphs openly. Together, we can provide encouragement, guidance, and empathy to one another. Let's foster a safe and non-judgmental space where we can support each other on our respective journeys towards healing and recovery. Thank you for welcoming me, and I look forward to connecting with all of you! #Introduction