I am on day 12, it is almost done. I watched some p videos and went on kissing after that, no O. Didn't let myself to continue, I stopped, I almost O'd but stopped right before it. I am shaking right now no idea why, but I promise I will keep fighting. I had no urges untill today. No idea what happened my buddy some how woke up today after 11 days sleeping. Going back in hard mode, I believe I can do it. Thanks for your reading, would like to have some advices, and shall I consider this as a relapse? I didn't O. And no sperm went out. Just looked. I wish it wasn't a relapse. Or else I will feel sorry for myself.