As a teenager, forums helped me give up self-harm. As an adult, I need them again.

Hey guys! (I'm guessing it's mainly guys in here anyway)

As with all introductions, this is a little awkward, and honestly, I'm not expecting a reply right now. To be fair, I don't really need it.

I know exactly when I will though.

I'll need it when I get home drunk, and think, 'Maybe, just this once...', or if I smoke some weed and think 'It was always better after a joint...', or when some pop-up advertising a free mmorpg flashes across my screen with some bikini-clad warrior woman... (dude, your game sucks, boobs don't change that!)

When I was younger, I relied on strangers to help with self-harm. They couldn't physically restrain me, but they could distract me long enough for the urge to pass. That's what this is about for me. Taking my attention somewhere social or fun or interesting, long enough for my perspective to return to 'that was a terrible idea'.

It sounds like nothing; but in the moment, its really freaking important.

So that's what I'm asking for, and that's what I'm willing to give. Let's chat about nonsense, let's get into what's behind all this, let's share gifs and jokes amongst the pain to come.

As I said, I'm not looking for a reply. Stating all this, it's more a declaration for myself than anything else. It's an promise I will uphold & break & take up again, because nothing goes the way you want it to. But maybe a few months from now, I'll be a little healthier.

All best fellas,

Scott

 

Hey man, thanks for the kind words.
I think just good chat with nice folks like yourself will keep me afloat for now.
However, when things get crazy, I'm going to need that emergency nerd stuff; in-depth discussion of sci-fi films & books, anime & manga recommendations, and the best superhero comic memes the internet can provide.
If I'm giving up porn, my nerd vices are likely to go into hyperdrive.