Beast mode focus

For the last 212 days, I've had a total of 3 pmo releases and 2 sexual O releases, with a month during the winter with a little edging. Even though my current hardmode streak is at 20 days, it feels like all the cumulative streaks have added up to the point I'm at now. Over all this time, I've been trying really hard to sublimate all the excess testosterone and energy before it caused me to relapse, though it's been frustrating, but I feel like it's finally starting to work.

Earlier tonight, something amazing happened. I gained sudden tremendous focus, presence of mind, and felt like a total beast that could rip down a tree with my bare hands. It was like some kind of drug, except that there was so much clarity. I felt like I could do anything I wanted and had no fears, not even death. It's still fresh in my mind, and as I'm writing this, I have all sorts of new ideas for building a solid financial future. I realize now that I have absolutely nothing to lose by trying any ideas, and if they fail, there are limitless ideas, and I will never stop trying. It amazes me that celibacy has brought me this tremendous will power, clarity, and strength. All my adut life before this, I've been timid, fearful and gave up too easily; all because of PMO.

Even though this isn't a material success story, I already feel very successful in the change of person that I've become. I'm more than excited to keep going with this lifestyle and see where it leads me.

I hope this motivate and helps all you guys that read it. NoFap truly is a life changer, and even if you relapse, stick with it. Always keep trying, never give up in ending your addiction.