This you said "Start not being so attached to feelings and pleasure the nature of life is change. One moment you are feeling good the next heartbeat you are bad, then good again. It's just neurotic living like that." So that's how u relapsed
No, that's called life. You can not sustain happiness forever, happiness or feeling good is transitory. There is more in life than feeling good.
No, I don't care about happiness or feelings I look for the essence of the mind, what lies behind reason, perception and emotions, for objective reality.
Thanks brother, you're making great progress too! So sorry you're in a rough place man. I remember you were in a similar state of mind at one point during the marathon, but it didn't last too long before you started feeling better again. I hope you find your way through quickly again. I recommend trying to stick it through before doing anything rash like quitting your job. Keep taking good care of yourself.
I am fine now. Thanks RMD! I worked half day on the ot her day though. And feeling better. I noticed that last week I had a group call with my friends and it all came in the end about changing jobs. Almost all of them are earning twice/thrice of my salary. And additionally there were pending work which I could not do. Fear of responding to my managers, I didn't login. I am weak, and immature. I have to deal with this and not become an escapist.
