Can I Back To My Natural Taste?

The anxiety that the hocd causes produces arousal. And thinking about gay fantasies is equivalent to thinking about extreme porn. So if you think about that stuff then you’re essentially thinking about extreme porn and that’s why you get a response. Stop thinking about that stuff and start to see the trigger through non anxious eyes.

Anxiety is what amplifies the triggers, not some real natural desires. The fact that it stays in your brain after you’ve reassured yourself for the millionth time that you don’t like it is because you keep arguing with it inside your head. Let the thoughts flow in your mind but don’t engage with them. Let them die naturally. Notice the patterns your brain comes up with when it puts these things in your mind. It’s always some weird, extreme, all or nothing type stuff isn’t it. It isn’t something you actually find pleasurable, but rather something you feel forced to act on regardless of any real life consequences. The fact that you’ve been straight your entire life and never doubted yourself until the moment Hocd set in is all the proof you need to determine who you are. Just stop thinking about extreme porn and it will lose its control over you. Stop reinforcing their power by wiring your sexual reward circuits to extreme porn fantasies aswell. Stop now before it gets worse.

 

The more you think about something the longer it will torment you. It’s playing these scenarios in your head because you’ve deemed it a threat. Before Hocd, when you saw a “good looking” guy you wouldn’t even blink. You wouldn’t acknowledge it as anything important. So obviously you can go back to how it was before hand, but you gotta stop allowing the anxiety and extreme stuff to force you into argument. Don’t argue with them and let them die by themselves.

 

You’re not turning gay. You’re just believing your anxiety. You’ll be fine but stop putting the healing off any further. Start right now.

 

Probably just the meds. Lots of them effect libido.